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How do I begin to handle rejection better?
So I struggle with self harm and do it for multiple reasons, usually when feeling insecure, not getting enough validation at the time or especially when facing rejection.
Here’s a story, so I was in a convenience store with my mate buying energy drinks to give us the energy to go clubbing all night. There was this Asian girl with her friend in the store also. I pointed out to my mate that she was pretty (high mtb) and he approached her for me because I didn’t have the confidence to do so myself due to insecurities. Anyways she seemed a little awkward and uninterested and I could tell she wasn’t interested but I asked for her instagram anyways, she reluctantly gave it to me and I already had a pit in my stomach due to this interaction. I was ranting to my mate about how she wasn’t interested in me and probably hated me. Now I trust his opinion a lot because he’s honest and was the one who actually introduced me to this website, so he’s not just some happy go lucky Normie. He told me she was just shy and was actually interested and I reluctantly took his advice and enjoyed the rest of the night clubbing. As I was in an uber going home I checked to see if she accepted my friend request and to my horror it said “follow” meaning she denied it. This has happened before and I call it “request trauma”, request trauma being when a girl denies your friend request on ig and you see the dreaded “follow” which is worse than it just staying as “requested”. Anyways back to the story, I felt this intense change in my emotions and messaged that friend about it and he managed to calm me down for the time being. When I got home it resurfaced in my mind and that strong feeling of emptiness, self hatred and dread gloomed over me. I ended up crashing out on instagram about how much I hate myself and want to die etc (not the first time doing so unfortunately), that mate saw the story and told me to take it down so I did so. However I ended up self harming (cutting) and did so for about a week relentlessly until I finally got over the whole conundrum. I just can’t stop self harming especially when facing rejection, please help.
So I struggle with self harm and do it for multiple reasons, usually when feeling insecure, not getting enough validation at the time or especially when facing rejection.
Here’s a story, so I was in a convenience store with my mate buying energy drinks to give us the energy to go clubbing all night. There was this Asian girl with her friend in the store also. I pointed out to my mate that she was pretty (high mtb) and he approached her for me because I didn’t have the confidence to do so myself due to insecurities. Anyways she seemed a little awkward and uninterested and I could tell she wasn’t interested but I asked for her instagram anyways, she reluctantly gave it to me and I already had a pit in my stomach due to this interaction. I was ranting to my mate about how she wasn’t interested in me and probably hated me. Now I trust his opinion a lot because he’s honest and was the one who actually introduced me to this website, so he’s not just some happy go lucky Normie. He told me she was just shy and was actually interested and I reluctantly took his advice and enjoyed the rest of the night clubbing. As I was in an uber going home I checked to see if she accepted my friend request and to my horror it said “follow” meaning she denied it. This has happened before and I call it “request trauma”, request trauma being when a girl denies your friend request on ig and you see the dreaded “follow” which is worse than it just staying as “requested”. Anyways back to the story, I felt this intense change in my emotions and messaged that friend about it and he managed to calm me down for the time being. When I got home it resurfaced in my mind and that strong feeling of emptiness, self hatred and dread gloomed over me. I ended up crashing out on instagram about how much I hate myself and want to die etc (not the first time doing so unfortunately), that mate saw the story and told me to take it down so I did so. However I ended up self harming (cutting) and did so for about a week relentlessly until I finally got over the whole conundrum. I just can’t stop self harming especially when facing rejection, please help.
