twojei
Fartmaxxing on foids
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PREFACE
There was an autistic girl who was introduced to me by my therapist. She has had a hard life not gonna lie. Being somewhat autistic as a girl tends to be brutal since autistic women are a lil bit more "individualistic"; behaviour which tends to be easily punished by NT women. She was there for me at my worst moment: chronically ill, ugly, broke, insecure, etc. I even remember telling her about my attempt to rope because I was drunk at that time. She never walked away and was always there for me. Do you know who kept her away? Me. I did it three times, and we would always talk again.
In the end, people get tired. She told me herself without telling me directly: indecisive guy. “Life is a risk”, "You are my soul mate because you have what I lack (and viceversa of course)", she used to say. In my head, it was impossible for these kind of girls to exist
. I was so brainwashed from the Blackpill and manosphere content that I did not believed these kind of girls existed and so, I did what my subconscious mind wanted me to do the fastest: sabotage everything and get away from her.
To be honest, I'm glad she stopped talking to me. I do not deserve her. There was an autistic girl who was introduced to me by my therapist. She has had a hard life not gonna lie. Being somewhat autistic as a girl tends to be brutal since autistic women are a lil bit more "individualistic"; behaviour which tends to be easily punished by NT women. She was there for me at my worst moment: chronically ill, ugly, broke, insecure, etc. I even remember telling her about my attempt to rope because I was drunk at that time. She never walked away and was always there for me. Do you know who kept her away? Me. I did it three times, and we would always talk again.
In the end, people get tired. She told me herself without telling me directly: indecisive guy. “Life is a risk”, "You are my soul mate because you have what I lack (and viceversa of course)", she used to say. In my head, it was impossible for these kind of girls to exist
. I was so brainwashed from the Blackpill and manosphere content that I did not believed these kind of girls existed and so, I did what my subconscious mind wanted me to do the fastest: sabotage everything and get away from her.
SELF-HATE: the reason why you will sabotage good relationships.
It's paradoxical don't you think? You have been hated throughout all of your life that you are so full of self-hate, and that's precisely the reason why you don't deserve love not from a foid, but from a woman. How brutal! Even if you were to become a tomorrow, you might be ready to love a foid, but not a woman. Why? Because you will "discharge" all of that hate into her, sabotaging everything.
Hypothetically, what if a woman ever sees behind her own ego and starts loving your soul (or nerve-structure and brain for the atheists)? You will fucking destroy her motherfucker! You're so full of self-hate that once she shows you that she can really love you in a way you never expected, you will start hating her back because her loving what you hate of yourself will hurt your ego. Your ego wants to attach itself to hate and anger because it is easier than simply loving, forgiving, and being compassionate with yourself.
tomorrow, you might be ready to love a foid, but not a woman. Why? Because you will "discharge" all of that hate into her, sabotaging everything.Hypothetically, what if a woman ever sees behind her own ego and starts loving your soul (or nerve-structure and brain for the atheists)? You will fucking destroy her motherfucker! You're so full of self-hate that once she shows you that she can really love you in a way you never expected
, you will start hating her back because her loving what you hate of yourself will hurt your ego. Your ego wants to attach itself to hate and anger because it is easier than simply loving, forgiving, and being compassionate with yourself.How simple it is to simply truly love, forgive, and be compassionate with yourself right
? NO! It isn't, because if it was then there would no be depressed incels, and what's more, depression wouldn't even probably even exist in this world. Thus I dearly ask you brother: Is not the weight of existence enough for you? Was not being born and being given lots of fucking problems—even when you didn't ask for them—enough for you? Then tell me brother, fucking tell me! Why to suffer?! Was not dealing with the fucking Blackpill firsthand enough for you, that now you need to carry even more anger that will be repressed, and consequently will give you depression which will make you suffer even more?!What are you gonna do? Rope
? Do you even know how much fucking courage you need to even commit to it?! The fucking courage you didn't have to live in spite of your horrible circumstances motherfucker; just as other incels do. Do learn from them, and that's why it is so important for incels to connect in real life too, not just in the internet. Furthermore, do you even know how fucking horrible it can be roping if you're already an over-sensitive aspie? Fucking hell. There's not shame in dying by suicide or living though, they are both sides of the same coin; one I cannot even describe yet.And now, what you gonna do? Will you go ER
on innocent people right? To project your hate to the world who was first projected to you first by the ego of other people, proceeding to leave the fucking INCEL community worst than it already is, giving those frustrated motherfuckers of IT more hate-fuel—but more important—now you are giving more reasons to so(y)ciety to keep hating you. Congratulations! Do you all see how hate and anger just create more hate and anger? The most perfect recipe for simulateneous self-destruction! Congratulations! Now you hate the world and yourself even more. Do you really want this? Do you want more pain?
