shit party today ended up crying in the subway and in front of my mum out of frustation

[Enfant terrible]

First of all probably nobody will care about this but I need to vent so bad.
Also tale from a psychotic mind incoming.
I had the biggest mental breakdown i had for quit a while today, probably months.
How was it triggered?
We had this small party and i attended. I was hoping for good because I had good expierences in the past recently.
So I arrived and what I experienced triggered so much underlying hatred and brought issues to the surface that were still buried inside myself which I thought I had kind moved on about.
First of all the biggest groups of annoying npcs I have ever meet.
There were many girls there, and I heard them talk about dating apps, "hot boys" they approached, all kinds off lookspill stuff. This started triggering my psl ptsd.
Its not like I heard this stuff for the first time. It didn't bother me in the past. Maybe I was more vulnerable today. I have heard terrifying stories about dick size before and crazy other stories from women. Which made me depise women more tbh.
I felt an immense amount of envy because of this. It was annyoying especially because the guys they were talking about weren't anything special at all. No chads just ordinary guys in the htns range. It could have been me.
Why its not me, that was making me extremely angry. Does anyone talk about me like that, i wish i would know.
One girl in particularly was annoying me so much. Literally out of a looksmax thread. Like a caricature of the chad chasing becky in real life. Alt girl, extremely average looking but still got alll these simps on Instagram. Some of them good looking wtf. They have so much choice. They don't know the suffering I had to endure in high school. I hate them so much.
@aBetterMii stop stimping nigga its creates these creatures.
Making fun of manlets on tinder etc.
I was getting angrier and angrier ended up needing copious amounts of alcohol to feel no mental pain anymore.
Anyways on the way home I was angry, sad, angry again than sad. I was crying in the subway. I almost never cry but today was to much and I needed to let my feelings out.
I was wasted and was calling my mum to drive me home. I go to college not far from were I grew up and because of christmas approaching I am at home right now.
We talked about my issues, and I started crying again fuck man.
Worst day of my life for a long time and i don't even really know why I reacted that extreme.
Anyways

fuck them all

 

[Gus17]

You gotta get over female nature man. Nature is a fucked game of survival of the fittest. All you can do is try and compete.

 

[Enfant terrible]

You gotta get over female nature man. Nature is a fucked game of survival of the fittest. All you can do is try and compete.

yeah i guess so

 

[aBetterMii]

See, attractive guys that mog me simp for MTB emo girls. This happens to normie girls too, they all mog me. I am LTN.

Also, that suck, I am friends with girls and hearing them speak blackpill so casually is suifuel. I cried like 3 weeks ago from being so frustrated at being alone and emo girls leading me on and just never succeeding. Its so frustrating

 

[Enfant terrible]

See, attractive guys that mog me simp for MTB emo girls. This happens to normie girls too, they all mog me. I am LTN.

Also, that suck, I am friends with girls and hearing them speak blackpill so casually is suifuel. I cried like 3 weeks ago from being so frustrated at being alone and emo girls leading me on and just never succeeding. Its so frustrating

life sucks

 

[Hero of the Imperium]

you should not cry ever as a grown man unless a dear loved one is dead or it's the end of the dynasty, fall of civilization

but you can blame the drink. it was

 

[Enfant terrible]

See, attractive guys that mog me simp for MTB emo girls. This happens to normie girls too, they all mog me. I am LTN.

Also, that suck, I am friends with girls and hearing them speak blackpill so casually is suifuel. I cried like 3 weeks ago from being so frustrated at being alone and emo girls leading me on and just never succeeding. Its so frustrating

Also its not that I am unattractive. I get iois and I get approached sometimes.
I got approached after 10 minutes after I entered the club last time I went.
It just that I hate this world and the evil in it so much and I can't cope.
And I feel for everyone here who suffers because of this.
I have a trauma from the past when I was ugly aswell which influences my reaction

 

[Enfant terrible]

you should not cry ever as a grown man unless a dear loved one is dead or it's the end of the dynasty, fall of civilization

but you can blame the drink. it was

yeah i know to much self pity

 

[fukmylyf]

This is nothing tbh. Best get used to experiences like this if you want to improve. It's brutal out there and ur ego will get smacked sometimes. All part of the process

 

[edodalic29]

Who cares their all whores anyway , lol at trying to have a conversation with a women if your not going to pump and dump

 

[Enfant terrible]

Who cares their all whores anyway , lol at trying to have a conversation with a women if your not going to pump and dump

i didnt really
talk to them
i told that alt girl their convos are boring as fuck

 

[Enfant terrible]

Who cares their all whores anyway , lol at trying to have a conversation with a women if your not going to pump and dump

Literally all women are npcs besides some mentally ill ones
i learn that time and time again

 

[Deleted member 24586]

Sorry to hear this brocel, I know some niggas here may just jfl react your post but these sort of experiences are brutal and can really make you hate this cruel world. Sometimes I get triggered when I hear women make fun of certain types of men but I'm too emotionally empty to show that I care.

I could've ascended a few months ago but the girl who wanted to meet me randomly started making fun of certain types of men (some I share traits with) and so i decided to not meet her to avoid disappointment and I had a borderline mental breakdown a while after. IMO Most women are whores who care about things men can't change unfortunately.

 

[human304]

You gotta get over female nature man. Nature is a fucked game of survival of the fittest. All you can do is try and compete.

a race that has no civilization , only alive because of relief from white men , is now portrayed as kings and women like them.

how this is survival of the fittest.

 

[looksmaxxed]

you are weak. this generation is fucked.

 

[Enfant terrible]

you are weak. this generation is fucked.

i dont deny that

 

[Enfant terrible]

Sorry to hear this brocel, I know some niggas here may just jfl react your post but these sort of experiences are brutal and can really make you hate this cruel world. Sometimes I get triggered when I hear women make fun of certain types of men but I'm too emotionally empty to show that I care.

I could've ascended a few months ago but the girl who wanted to meet me randomly started making fun of certain types of men (some I share traits with) and so i decided to not meet her to avoid disappointment and I had a borderline mental breakdown a while after. IMO Most women are whores who care about things men can't change unfortunately.

My only hope is the women from this thread https://looksmax.org/threads/was-that-an-ioi.618255/
She seems decent and normal and i think she will be on a party on friday. If so i will try to talk with her.

 

[fukmylyf]

ur a bitch, a pussy, a faggot. I may attack u one day

 

[Enfant terrible]

ur a bitch, a pussy, a faggot. I may attack u one day

good luck

 

[Gus17]

a race that has no civilization , only alive because of relief from white men , is now portrayed as kings and women like them.

how this is survival of the fittest.

Brutal NT pill. Civilizations with less complexity and social restrictions tend to be more creative, which lead to African Americans dominating american pop culture. Rock and Roll, Jazz, Blues, Hip-Hop, and Rap all came from blacks.

 

[Enfant terrible]

@Niko

 

[edodalic29]

Literally all women are npcs besides some mentally ill ones
i learn that time and time again

what were they talking about

 

[Deleted member 7580]

Title reads like something @Xangsane would post

 

[Daqirius]

Bitch nigga

 

[human304]

Brutal NT pill. Civilizations with less complexity and social restrictions tend to be more creative, which lead to African Americans dominating american pop culture. Rock and Roll, Jazz, Blues, Hip-Hop, and Rap all came from blacks.

yes blacks make good Ooga booga music and runs fast with a black. how these two things are necessary for human survival? they can not grow food, cant build infranstructure, cant preserve food and many other things?

even today south african food minister thinks food comes from super markets.
even chinks and pajeets had civilization blacks had shit.

singing , dancing and playing sports is never necessary for human survival.

 

[Enfant terrible]

what were they talking about

Oh god, about a new logo for the pick up candy bar, about university organisations stuff, tinder and dating apps, some cute guy some girl gave her number in the library who didn't even look good. Also, there appeared a simp orbiter later. A friend zoned guy with a beard and obese, fucking reddit mod.
He said that guy in the library was a big red flag. They looked at his insta. Jfl nice guy cuck with gaslighting agenda.
The cool waterpolo jock I like to talk wasn't there so it was boring people overall.
Try finding a woman who is into deep convos, challenge very hard.

 

[TITUS]

Believe it or not i read all of it and still don't know why you got that mental breakdown.

 

[Enfant terrible]

Believe it or not i read all of it and still don't know why you got that mental breakdown.

i dont really know either
normally iam more stable

 

[Enfant terrible]

Believe it or not i read all of it and still don't know why you got that mental breakdown.

Normally I don't even care that much but today I guess I was more vulnerable to get triggered over small things.

 

[Xangsane]

Title reads like something @Xangsane would post

Why

 

[Enfant terrible]

Why

bro i have patrick bateman like mental breakdowns over nothing
mental health over at this point

 

[Gus17]

yes blacks make good Ooga booga music and runs fast with a black. how these two things are necessary for human survival? they can not grow food, cant build infranstructure, cant preserve food and many other things?

even today south african food minister thinks food comes from super markets.
even chinks and pajeets had civilization blacks had shit.

singing , dancing and playing sports is never necessary for human survival.

I don't think you understand what I'm saying. To be portrayed positively as equals Blacks don't need to actually be kings or queens or whatever, they don't need actual complex civilization or ideas, they just need social capital. Black cultural dominance allows them to be seen as equals if not above white people in academia and the media.

 

[human304]

Black cultural dominance allows them to be seen as equals if not above white people in academia and the media.

yes they are so brilliant that they had to lower requirement and stop asians to get into colleges. they had free scholarships handed to them.

media just hands them roles to fill out the diversity quota. and they are the perceived kings.
also they regularly publishes this type of articles.

you Blacks are the most racist, useless , animalistic race of animals. you are surviving just because white women and cuck white men like you. you dont even consider others human.

 

[Deleted member 23218]

First of all probably nobody will care about this but I need to vent so bad.
Also tale from a psychotic mind incoming.
I had the biggest mental breakdown i had for quit a while today, probably months.
How was it triggered?
We had this small party and i attended. I was hoping for good because I had good expierences in the past recently.
So I arrived and what I experienced triggered so much underlying hatred and brought issues to the surface that were still buried inside myself which I thought I had kind moved on about.
First of all the biggest groups of annoying npcs I have ever meet.
There were many girls there, and I heard them talk about dating apps, "hot boys" they approached, all kinds off lookspill stuff. This started triggering my psl ptsd.
Its not like I heard this stuff for the first time. It didn't bother me in the past. Maybe I was more vulnerable today. I have heard terrifying stories about dick size before and crazy other stories from women. Which made me depise women more tbh.
I felt an immense amount of envy because of this. It was annyoying especially because the guys they were talking about weren't anything special at all. No chads just ordinary guys in the htns range. It could have been me.
Why its not me, that was making me extremely angry. Does anyone talk about me like that, i wish i would know.
One girl in particularly was annoying me so much. Literally out of a looksmax thread. Like a caricature of the chad chasing becky in real life. Alt girl, extremely average looking but still got alll these simps on Instagram. Some of them good looking wtf. They have so much choice. They don't know the suffering I had to endure in high school. I hate them so much.
@aBetterMii stop stimping nigga its creates these creatures.
Making fun of manlets on tinder etc.
I was getting angrier and angrier ended up needing copious amounts of alcohol to feel no mental pain anymore.
Anyways on the way home I was angry, sad, angry again than sad. I was crying in the subway. I almost never cry but today was to much and I needed to let my feelings out.
I was wasted and was calling my mum to drive me home. I go to college not far from were I grew up and because of christmas approaching I am at home right now.
We talked about my issues, and I started crying again fuck man.
Worst day of my life for a long time and i don't even really know why I reacted that extreme.
Anyways

fuck them all

What where the dickpill stories. I overheard one recently. 2 mtb whores where talking about the dickpick one of them got from some chad and how it was so big. Talked about it in the middle of a fucking library jfl at white women

 

[Enfant terrible]

What where the dickpill stories. I overheard one recently.

So some girl had a tall muscular boyfriend and when the first had sex she discovered he had a micropenis. She didn't enjoy it but put through with it.

 

[Deleted member 23218]

So some girl had a tall muscular boyfriend and when the first had sex she discovered he had a micropenis. She didn't enjoy it but put through with it.

I hate women

 

[Enfant terrible]

I hate women

she was ugly they have no self awareness

 

[Deleted member 2268]

First of all probably nobody will care about this but I need to vent so bad.
Also tale from a psychotic mind incoming.
I had the biggest mental breakdown i had for quit a while today, probably months.
How was it triggered?
We had this small party and i attended. I was hoping for good because I had good expierences in the past recently.
So I arrived and what I experienced triggered so much underlying hatred and brought issues to the surface that were still buried inside myself which I thought I had kind moved on about.
First of all the biggest groups of annoying npcs I have ever meet.
There were many girls there, and I heard them talk about dating apps, "hot boys" they approached, all kinds off lookspill stuff. This started triggering my psl ptsd.
Its not like I heard this stuff for the first time. It didn't bother me in the past. Maybe I was more vulnerable today. I have heard terrifying stories about dick size before and crazy other stories from women. Which made me depise women more tbh.
I felt an immense amount of envy because of this. It was annyoying especially because the guys they were talking about weren't anything special at all. No chads just ordinary guys in the htns range. It could have been me.
Why its not me, that was making me extremely angry. Does anyone talk about me like that, i wish i would know.
One girl in particularly was annoying me so much. Literally out of a looksmax thread. Like a caricature of the chad chasing becky in real life. Alt girl, extremely average looking but still got alll these simps on Instagram. Some of them good looking wtf. They have so much choice. They don't know the suffering I had to endure in high school. I hate them so much.
@aBetterMii stop stimping nigga its creates these creatures.
Making fun of manlets on tinder etc.
I was getting angrier and angrier ended up needing copious amounts of alcohol to feel no mental pain anymore.
Anyways on the way home I was angry, sad, angry again than sad. I was crying in the subway. I almost never cry but today was to much and I needed to let my feelings out.
I was wasted and was calling my mum to drive me home. I go to college not far from were I grew up and because of christmas approaching I am at home right now.
We talked about my issues, and I started crying again fuck man.
Worst day of my life for a long time and i don't even really know why I reacted that extreme.
Anyways

fuck them all

Accept how you feel and move forward. Men are meant to go through suffering, even more so successful men

 

[Deleted member 21628]

Maybe just stop being a autist

 

[Amexmaxx]

a race that has no civilization , only alive because of relief from white men , is now portrayed as kings and women like them.

how this is survival of the fittest.

I hope you not talking about black people here. Dont make me take you down the “its not us its them” rabbit hole and debunk your white supremacy fallacies.

 

[Amexmaxx]

Like idk what to tell you bro. This world is brutal and most omen are awful people. If you spot toxic foids just treat them like the dangerous animals they are and fight/flight. Dont freeze and suffer their toxicity in the name of being NT.

 

[Deleted member 21278]

a race that has no civilization , only alive because of relief from white men , is now portrayed as kings and women like them.

how this is survival of the fittest.

Porn has rotted your mind most women prefer their own race

 

[Baldingman1998]

Height? Race?

 

[HighClassMaxing]

Believe it or not i read all of it and still don't know why you got that mental breakdown.

im guessing he has bpd

 

[RAITEIII]

First of all probably nobody will care about this but I need to vent so bad.
Also tale from a psychotic mind incoming.
I had the biggest mental breakdown i had for quit a while today, probably months.
How was it triggered?
We had this small party and i attended. I was hoping for good because I had good expierences in the past recently.
So I arrived and what I experienced triggered so much underlying hatred and brought issues to the surface that were still buried inside myself which I thought I had kind moved on about.
First of all the biggest groups of annoying npcs I have ever meet.
There were many girls there, and I heard them talk about dating apps, "hot boys" they approached, all kinds off lookspill stuff. This started triggering my psl ptsd.
Its not like I heard this stuff for the first time. It didn't bother me in the past. Maybe I was more vulnerable today. I have heard terrifying stories about dick size before and crazy other stories from women. Which made me depise women more tbh.
I felt an immense amount of envy because of this. It was annyoying especially because the guys they were talking about weren't anything special at all. No chads just ordinary guys in the htns range. It could have been me.
Why its not me, that was making me extremely angry. Does anyone talk about me like that, i wish i would know.
One girl in particularly was annoying me so much. Literally out of a looksmax thread. Like a caricature of the chad chasing becky in real life. Alt girl, extremely average looking but still got alll these simps on Instagram. Some of them good looking wtf. They have so much choice. They don't know the suffering I had to endure in high school. I hate them so much.
@aBetterMii stop stimping nigga its creates these creatures.
Making fun of manlets on tinder etc.
I was getting angrier and angrier ended up needing copious amounts of alcohol to feel no mental pain anymore.
Anyways on the way home I was angry, sad, angry again than sad. I was crying in the subway. I almost never cry but today was to much and I needed to let my feelings out.
I was wasted and was calling my mum to drive me home. I go to college not far from were I grew up and because of christmas approaching I am at home right now.
We talked about my issues, and I started crying again fuck man.
Worst day of my life for a long time and i don't even really know why I reacted that extreme.
Anyways

fuck them all

Damn. If I take my guess it's feelings of missing out and poor current situation that triggered all this situation.

Taking action is the only course, for you and me. But it's good to let feelings come out.

 

[Dr. Bludy]

ER 2.0 in the making buddy boyos

 

[Deleted member 19157]

sometimes i think im sensitive but then i read nibbas like you and it makes me feel a lot better about myself. ty op for being a hoe and a half

 

[Dystopian]

It’s always the faggots with foids in their avi’s

 

[Enfant terrible]

Height? Race?

6ft white

 

[Enfant terrible]

Damn. If I take my guess it's feelings of missing out and poor current situation that triggered all this situation.

Taking action is the only course, for you and me. But it's good to let feelings come out.

I guess so