MyDreamIsToBe183CM
Currently have a 73% of dying
- Joined
- Apr 25, 2024
- Posts
- 1,792
- Reputation
- 1,121
Originally I was planning to rope like last summer but I pussied out because my method was shit and scary. I was gonna do more attempts but eventually I stopped because I got some lifefuel and I just started HGH a month ago.
Since I got HGH, I got a lot of motivation to start living again and decided to extend my suicide date to atleast six months longer or in the summer.
But now really thinking about it, is there really a point of living that much longer for no reason? My chronically age is 15.5, and I got my wrist bone age checked a few months ago and it was advanced by six months, and I doubt my AI did shit because I didn’t take the proper dosage, so my bone age is probally around 16 now.
Now by bone age of 16, 99 percent of growth is done. HGH doesn’t make you grow, or directly induce chondrocyte profileration, it just boosts that shit IF you were supposed to grow in the first place from your DNA. So if I injected prepuberty I would’ve beaten my genetics probably, but it’s over now.
So now, I don’t see the point of putting myself through another six months of torture. The thought of even living longer absolutely terrifies me. Shit man every few months now and then I wish I killed myself, starting at 13
Also, if I wait another six months, my source (DMC) for SN so I can rope might get shut down by then and then I will have no other painless methods.
For perspective, I’m 5’6 at 15 while my PARENTS ARE 6’1 and 5’5
Also don’t just tell me not to rope and give me bluepileld advice because obviously that shit won’t work. Ngl I just want to talk to somebody cuz it helps me cope a little better
Since I got HGH, I got a lot of motivation to start living again and decided to extend my suicide date to atleast six months longer or in the summer.
But now really thinking about it, is there really a point of living that much longer for no reason? My chronically age is 15.5, and I got my wrist bone age checked a few months ago and it was advanced by six months, and I doubt my AI did shit because I didn’t take the proper dosage, so my bone age is probally around 16 now.
Now by bone age of 16, 99 percent of growth is done. HGH doesn’t make you grow, or directly induce chondrocyte profileration, it just boosts that shit IF you were supposed to grow in the first place from your DNA. So if I injected prepuberty I would’ve beaten my genetics probably, but it’s over now.
So now, I don’t see the point of putting myself through another six months of torture. The thought of even living longer absolutely terrifies me. Shit man every few months now and then I wish I killed myself, starting at 13
Also, if I wait another six months, my source (DMC) for SN so I can rope might get shut down by then and then I will have no other painless methods.
For perspective, I’m 5’6 at 15 while my PARENTS ARE 6’1 and 5’5
Also don’t just tell me not to rope and give me bluepileld advice because obviously that shit won’t work. Ngl I just want to talk to somebody cuz it helps me cope a little better
Last edited: