
iblamemandible7
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I'm not talking mtns with BDD, or even ltns, but everyone here who is below ltn with genuine facial syndromes.
For my entire life, I've had the worst eye area of anyone I know. In my entire school of thousands of people, I easily had the worst. When I was born, I already had extreme myopia, extreme strabismus, and a couple other specific/rare things that I won't share for privacy. Multiple surgeries didn't fix it, so I had to go through life with these deformities. They worsened throughout my life as I grew, and by high school I was basically a subhuman. I would get stares everywhere and cruel remarks from 3 feet away from me about my eyes. When I wasn't being cold shouldered by other kids I was treated like a genuine retard by adults (I am ND, but I think their behavior towards me was 80% visual). I went through social hell, you are not alone because I have suffered just like you and for that reason I love you niggas, even the annoying ones. I couldnt even look people straight in the eye for the longest time because of my deformities. Im thankful for the BP because I finally know what I must do, and I know how urgent it is. If I continue through life like this, I can't describe the amount of regret I'll have on my deathbed. What I'm experiencing right now is not life, I'm not sure what the right word is to describe it but life isn't one of them. I've already watched my entire childhood and most of my adolescence pass me by because of my curse. Thats why, as soon as I turn 18, Im going to do everything in my power to change my fate. Im going to put aside my health trauma and anxiety and every instinct in me that screams to stay in my depressed comfort zone, and I'm going to commit to any surgery I can get for my eyes, no matter how painful and difficult it is. Because maybe, just maybe, I can fight and win my life back.
I'm rooting for you niggas just as hard as I'm rooting for myself, we're all gonna make it, because we have to
For my entire life, I've had the worst eye area of anyone I know. In my entire school of thousands of people, I easily had the worst. When I was born, I already had extreme myopia, extreme strabismus, and a couple other specific/rare things that I won't share for privacy. Multiple surgeries didn't fix it, so I had to go through life with these deformities. They worsened throughout my life as I grew, and by high school I was basically a subhuman. I would get stares everywhere and cruel remarks from 3 feet away from me about my eyes. When I wasn't being cold shouldered by other kids I was treated like a genuine retard by adults (I am ND, but I think their behavior towards me was 80% visual). I went through social hell, you are not alone because I have suffered just like you and for that reason I love you niggas, even the annoying ones. I couldnt even look people straight in the eye for the longest time because of my deformities. Im thankful for the BP because I finally know what I must do, and I know how urgent it is. If I continue through life like this, I can't describe the amount of regret I'll have on my deathbed. What I'm experiencing right now is not life, I'm not sure what the right word is to describe it but life isn't one of them. I've already watched my entire childhood and most of my adolescence pass me by because of my curse. Thats why, as soon as I turn 18, Im going to do everything in my power to change my fate. Im going to put aside my health trauma and anxiety and every instinct in me that screams to stay in my depressed comfort zone, and I'm going to commit to any surgery I can get for my eyes, no matter how painful and difficult it is. Because maybe, just maybe, I can fight and win my life back.
I'm rooting for you niggas just as hard as I'm rooting for myself, we're all gonna make it, because we have to
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