shshs

[crossed star]

you know, i masturbate everyday to escape whqt i feel, i dont want to but it just hurts too much to not have any stimulation to escape what i feel, but last night and this day, i cant seem to go to tiktok or web to jerk off. just thinking about it makes me tired on escaping and pity for myself for escaping. i never even wsnt to escape but i dont even have a decision by how i cant take it by how much it hurts, if i stop escaping, i either sleep and sleep until i cant and will suffer cause am trying to escape through sleeping but i cant cause i slept so much, i pity myself. i will just play games for now to escape what i feel.