Social rejection is making me depressed

[suicidemonkey]

I should never have let myself become a binge eater, I don't know what it is but being made fun of by women is one of the most painful feelings in the world.

Brings me back to high school, I feel completely disgusted at myself. I won't blame them since it's only human nature, but I will admit that it is enough to make me feel very depressed. I have tried to quit binge eating many times and have repeatedly failed, but even so I am committed to stopping completely.

I'm not even fat at all either (22 percent body fat, maybe 23), but I do keep isolating myself from other people. Why is treatment from other people so conditional? I feel like my life is practically over while above say 20% body fat, why does that happen?

For context, I was a high MTN (good-looking) before but now I'm like a LTN.

 

[A_H0T_Wombat]

Cause it is

I feel the same way, life as been in limbo while I lose the weight