society seems to have zero tolerance for anything outside of the norm. either you act like everyone else or get left behind.

[raped by reality]

during my whole childhood i was excluded, and in my early teens i was verbally bullied for being different. even though i had a few friends during my childhood and early teenage, people those small friend groups often acted like i didn’t deserve basic respect. they would talk down to me, ignore me, shame me, and treat me poorly just bc i was different, and honestly, even one of my own friend groups spent years doing this to me too.

that constant stream of dismissal and judgment made me feel like i didn’t belong anywhere. i hated how all that disrespect made me feel so below them, along with so much shame, like somehow their opinions mattered than mine.

i was tired of being treated that way, so i started to “fix" myself by acting more traditionally normal, working out, learning how to be more charismatic and confident, setting boundaries, etc and when people responded with praise and admiration, it felt like a rush.

 

[poindextahh]

nice first post

 

[raped by reality]

nice first post

thank u bro

 

[fxckz]

Just goes to show how fucked and utterly faggoted low t you have to be to base your confidence off strangers praise, it's over for u

 

[raped by reality]

I don't base my confidence or take things personally, I use every bit of their criticism to improve