Sold my soul to Larp NT

[Prøphet]

The last time I acted like myself was when I was 14 or 15

It really took me that long to learn that something is inherently wrong with me, that who I am as a person only annoys and brings displeasure to everyone around me

I got so used to hiding who I truly am, my true thoughts, mannerisms, jokes, etc that I genuinely forgot them and now I am something foreign to myself

I have no identity, I just try to mirror and please people as good as I can do they approve

I am without a face, but at least no one can ever hurt my true self anymore

Kafka spoke of this

 

[DDDF]

i cant believe normal people dont have to go through that, ts killing me

 

[Prøphet]

i cant believe normal people dont have to go through that, ts killing me

They will never understand how traumatizing it can be to be an ND in an NT world

Trying to precisely manufacture myself into a box that doesn’t disgust everyone feels dystopian and jestered, but the alternative is even worse

 

[DDDF]

legit most of my memories are my attempts to supress the ND shit. Like whole life philosophy, i'd like to read a book about how they navigate

 

[unfortunatehobbies]

lowk mirin, wish i had the strength to do this