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It's a moderate length read but I'm genuinely still stumped and frying my brains trying to figure out why this happened to me, I'd post this on .co but they banned me there so I can only post here
Basically I was standing outside with my 3 bros and this cousin and his dad came up who we all know but hardly ever see cuz they live far, and basically they both gave all my brother's a handshake except for me, they definitely noticed me, saw that I was there, but just completely ignored me really
I literally could not stop thinking about it ALL day wondering why it happened, I was trying to sit through the speech and just think about my grandma but all I could think about was me being the only one to not get a handshake, it made me mentally spiral SO. FUCKING. BADLY I was just sitting there sweating and thinking about how much of an ugly autistic piece of genuine fucking shit I am and how I just wanted to smash my fucking nose over and over till ever bone in my face is broken, it made me hate myself that much
Imagine being such a genetic fucking mess compared to your brothers that your own fucking blood actively ignores you, it especially hurts because I was the only one out of my brother's to not be greeted by them
Also the cousin also looked at me several times like he was creeped out by me
Basically I was standing outside with my 3 bros and this cousin and his dad came up who we all know but hardly ever see cuz they live far, and basically they both gave all my brother's a handshake except for me, they definitely noticed me, saw that I was there, but just completely ignored me really
I literally could not stop thinking about it ALL day wondering why it happened, I was trying to sit through the speech and just think about my grandma but all I could think about was me being the only one to not get a handshake, it made me mentally spiral SO. FUCKING. BADLY I was just sitting there sweating and thinking about how much of an ugly autistic piece of genuine fucking shit I am and how I just wanted to smash my fucking nose over and over till ever bone in my face is broken, it made me hate myself that much
Imagine being such a genetic fucking mess compared to your brothers that your own fucking blood actively ignores you, it especially hurts because I was the only one out of my brother's to not be greeted by them
Also the cousin also looked at me several times like he was creeped out by me
