Stared at the rope for like 2 hours and changed my mind

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Like 2 nights ago i set everything up to kill myself i found somewhere to hangmyself and everything,found a blue rope in my dads drawer so i took it and just looked up a tutorial on how to tie a tight knot with a rope and after it was all set up i just stared at it for like 2 hours,i wasnt even crying or anything dude i just stared at it zoned out and decided to not do it.decided instead of killing myself cause im subhuman ill just wait till i reach my max and finish puberty and if im still subhuman ill rope