Still can't get over that everything that I was finally getting to enjoy socially in life after many years of improvement, was nuked by Covid

[Zyros]

Covid was a fucking direct attack on exactly the things that improved in my life. I had more friends, now have beeen living like a hermit since covid. I had a flourishing social life, and specially nightlife, in whcih in the past 2 years I knew more people than all my life, after spending my entire former life struggling socially, nuked by covid. I was finally "proud" of walking around showing my face after finishing maturing + long leaning process, mandatory masks happened. Its like everything that "was finally right" with my life (well I enjoyed quite a bit of it as I stopped being fully incel in early 20s but still...) was specifically targeted and shot down by this fucking stupid virus shit.

The things that were affected were so specific and match so much what was finally better in my life that even when I know its obvious not true, can't get over the intrusive feeling that this whole covid shit was specifically made to fuck me over, like "oh, think it was your turn now to enjoy being higher on the social ladder? to get back at your former bullies by being more "popular"? to finally liberate from social ineptitude and be yourself without negative repercusions? SURPRISE THERE IS NO LADDER NOW! EVERYONE ENJOYED THE GAME AND YOU WORKED ALL THIS TIME TO GET YOUR TURN, BUT WHAT A PITY, TIMES UP JUST AS YOU GOT YOUR TURN".

I fucking feel like I started last in some race, and trough the race, just when I finally caught up and was about to finish in a good spot, someone came and shot me in the knee so one way or another, I can't get to enjoy a good finishing position anyway.

I really hope all this social death bullshit ends, I really really hope for it, because I only have this fucking life, and after all my finally fruitful effort in multiple areas of it (of course looks being one of the most important) and finally getting "my turn at life", I feel so cheated its not even funny.

 

[Warlow]

a bit melodramatic

 

[Zyros]

a bit melodramatic

Not at all. I wouldn't hurt as much if I enjoyed a good social life all my life, and not just so recently that I only "caught a glimpse" of what enjoying that life is. Kinda the "now it was your turn but game ended" bullshit.

 

[Ritalincel]

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[Zyros]

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And its noy only me, I walk the street see mask everywhere and feel like there is cattle everywhere and not people, everything so much colder and depressing.

 

[Deleted member 9699]

dn rd but i agree ngl
covid just shits on everything u were building up on

 

[Warlow]

Not at all. I wouldn't hurt as much if I enjoyed a good social life all my life, and not just so recently that I only "caught a glimpse" of what enjoying that life is. Kinda the "now it was your turn but game ended" bullshit.

you've finally made your way to the top, it's simply just a matter of patience at this point. Many would be content at your looks level, get over it tbh. The mask is shit but to me it seems you dislike it because it serves as a barrier to the dopamine you get from people seeing your face.

 

[Zyros]

you've finally made your way to the top, it's simply just a matter of patience at this point. Many would be content at your looks level, get over it tbh. The mask is shit but to me it seems you dislike it because it serves as a barrier to the dopamine you get from people seeing your face.

Well im no chad or top tier lifestlye, but I think you understand. What I fear is that i'm 32, and while im specially youthful (mistaken and treated like early-mid 20'er) I don't know how good my actual aging genetics and how much it will last. Now "every door" in the world is open to me, like I can go to my favorite hobby stores, to every single kind of bar/pub type, fit in any social urban tribe and all that shit without being out of place thanks to my "ageless" look, but if I have the misforturne to undergo one of those sudden agings during covid, many doors will close forever to me without having had time to enjoy them. If I was early 20's I would not be so afraid of covid, but then again, my actual face changed towards late 20's too, so its a bit of a catch 22.

And yes, I finally enjoyed the difference in the looks I was getting from people, and stopping seeing that condescendence bit from people was thrilling, so yes I got now a rush from showing my face. For me it was like a big fuck you to all the people who mistreated me or looked at me like in some goofy shit when they met me.

 

[Warlow]

Well im no chad or top tier lifestlye, but I think you understand. What I fear is that i'm 32, and while im specially youthful (mistaken and treated like early-mid 20'er) I don't know how good my actual aging genetics and how much it will last. Now "every door" in the world is open to me, like I can go to my favorite hobby stores, to every single kind of bar/pub type, fit in any social urban tribe and all that shit without being out of place thanks to my "ageless" look, but if I have the misforturne to undergo one of those sudden agings during covid, many doors will close forever to me without having had time to enjoy them. If I was early 20's I would not be so afraid of covid, but then again, my actual face changed towards late 20's too, so its a bit between sword and wall thing.

And yes, I finally enjoyed the difference in the looks I was getting from people, and stopping seeing that condescendence bit from people was thrilling, so yes I got now a rush from showing my face. For me it was like a big fuck you to all the people who mistreated me or looked at me like in some goofy shit when they met me.

fair enough tbh. I did paint you to be younger than 30.

 

[Deleted member 10679]

I guess just skin routine max and pray covid ends soon with the vaccines

 

[TheChosenChad]

You have ascended and your still complaining, stfu man.

 

[SpearOfOrion]

 

[ConspiracyTheory]

Honestly I've considered suicide a number of times during covid but then the Jews win.

 

[Deleted member 6217]

 

[Zyros]

shameless bump out of frustration. I hate covid and fucking masks.

 

[fukmylyf]

i'm tired of lockdown, but it's also a blessing tbh. The way I see it, some higher power decided to shut the whole world down so I could recover from my health issues without fomo.

anyway, it's still our turn nigga, vampires never die