Panzram
Trepanation enthusiast
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Anxiety is slowly fading as the will to live becomes lower and lower. I don't even mind death much at this point. The only thing I would regret if I die now is that I lived like a scared bitch and did not face and beat all my fears.
"Of all the wonders that I yet have heard, It seems to me most strange that men should fear; Seeing that death, a necessary end, Will come when it will come." -Cesar, Shakespeare
Even so I am almost fully ready to accept death and defeat. The feeling is one of relief. Anxiety is down like 80 percent. Still feel tense and can't sleep, I feel feverish. Maybe I have a fever but I doubt it, no other symptoms, I am not even cold anymore and I was earlier. I even fell asleep for half an hour (it was poor sleep) but woke up horny as fuck and jerked off in a frenzy.
Reading is really difficult at this point so is typing. I am not only sleep deprived but very exhausted from hard labor, and the mental stress of the owner of the house not letting us have any peace and privacy on a sunday.
"Of all the wonders that I yet have heard, It seems to me most strange that men should fear; Seeing that death, a necessary end, Will come when it will come." -Cesar, Shakespeare
Even so I am almost fully ready to accept death and defeat. The feeling is one of relief. Anxiety is down like 80 percent. Still feel tense and can't sleep, I feel feverish. Maybe I have a fever but I doubt it, no other symptoms, I am not even cold anymore and I was earlier. I even fell asleep for half an hour (it was poor sleep) but woke up horny as fuck and jerked off in a frenzy.
Reading is really difficult at this point so is typing. I am not only sleep deprived but very exhausted from hard labor, and the mental stress of the owner of the house not letting us have any peace and privacy on a sunday.
