Stop obsessing over not being chad

[911MrSuicidal]

Okay for starters I’m diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, which along with several other symptoms severely impacts your sense of self, self esteem and makes it hard to see grey areas in life, leading to black and white thinking. Due to said black and white thinking I judge myself incredibly harshly and often believe that unless I’m literally perfect I’m a subhuman abomination that deserves to die. Chad and nothing else. BPD and the black pill is a dangerous mix. Anyways I’m trying my best to see things more positively and less black and white albeit it is very difficult. I mean right now I’m in the comfort of my own home and haven’t been rejected recently so I’m feeling alright but I’m sure if I face rejection again I’ll revert back to that black and white thinking and overwhelming self hatred and emptiness.
I am ok, I’ve had several great interactions with women and have had multiple girls crush on me.
I do face rejection and it hurts beyond anything imaginable and it leads to self harm and I do schiz out but at the end of the day it’s so rare to be Chad. I should be grateful for what I have and should stop complaining so much. I will never be Chad and at best I’m high HTN from what I’ve been rated by black pilled friends and how I’ve been treated by women and I stand around 6’2. But then again my tinder has been slower than it used to be, but I still do get matches on tinder usually with high mtbs and the occasional htb. I do wish I was Chad it would be great but hey I guess it could be worse right?

 

[911MrSuicidal]

Actually now thinking of it I don’t know if life is worth it, I dunno if I’m even htn I’m probably just mtn and my mates know I’m mentally ill so they don’t wanna rate me lower incase I rope. I’ve been admitted to a psych ward voluntarily twice and was once taken to one by a police car involuntarily. Fuck man I can’t stand it anymore.

 

[911MrSuicidal]

It’s not even just my looks I hate I just hate me as a person. My very core and essence. I don’t know who I am bro.

 

[911MrSuicidal]

I called the suicide hotline about a week ago but it was some old woman so it didn’t really help. She was nice but her advice was just some old lady shit.

 

[futurechadlite111]

u made this just to tell everyone that u are htn

 

[superpsycho]

did not read a single molecule

chad or death

 

[davidlaidisme67]

Well I appreciate the sentiment but I can’t do that man

 

[gemy448]

did not read a single molecule

chad or death

What this Chad said is true

 

[chudlite]

yeah it’s egotistical in a way too, “insecurity” most people have is just ego

no nigger you won’t be chad even after mewing thumbpulling trimax obo and lefort

and that’s okay you weren’t made for it

 

[PsychoH]

did not read a single molecule

chad or death

 

[911MrSuicidal]

u made this just to tell everyone that u are htn

as I said in one of my replies I’m probably not even htn especially after seeing how people are rated in this site. I’m probably just mtn which is brutal.

 

[911MrSuicidal]

yeah it’s egotistical in a way too, “insecurity” most people have is just ego

no nigger you won’t be chad even after mewing thumbpulling trimax obo and lefort

and that’s okay you weren’t made for it

But why do some people get to be born Chad, I am a Christian but black pill is making me consider that Gnosticism is actually the truth.

 

[chudlite]

But why do some people get to be born Chad, I am a Christian but black pill is making me consider that Gnosticism is actually the truth.

what does christianity have to do with blackpill?

 

[911MrSuicidal]

what does christianity have to do with blackpill?

Well in Christianity it is believed God created the world as all good but it has become fallen. In Gnosticism it is believed that the god that created the material realm is a false god hence why suffering and imperfection exists

 

[chudlite]

Well in Christianity it is believed God created the world as all good but it has become fallen. In Gnosticism it is believed that the god that created the material realm is a false god hence why suffering and imperfection exists

i know what gnosticism and christianity are

what does christianity have to do with blackpill

 

[kindinternetman]

Okay for starters I’m diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, which along with several other symptoms severely impacts your sense of self, self esteem and makes it hard to see grey areas in life, leading to black and white thinking. Due to said black and white thinking I judge myself incredibly harshly and often believe that unless I’m literally perfect I’m a subhuman abomination that deserves to die. Chad and nothing else. BPD and the black pill is a dangerous mix. Anyways I’m trying my best to see things more positively and less black and white albeit it is very difficult. I mean right now I’m in the comfort of my own home and haven’t been rejected recently so I’m feeling alright but I’m sure if I face rejection again I’ll revert back to that black and white thinking and overwhelming self hatred and emptiness.
I am ok, I’ve had several great interactions with women and have had multiple girls crush on me.
I do face rejection and it hurts beyond anything imaginable and it leads to self harm and I do schiz out but at the end of the day it’s so rare to be Chad. I should be grateful for what I have and should stop complaining so much. I will never be Chad and at best I’m high HTN from what I’ve been rated by black pilled friends and how I’ve been treated by women and I stand around 6’2. But then again my tinder has been slower than it used to be, but I still do get matches on tinder usually with high mtbs and the occasional htb. I do wish I was Chad it would be great but hey I guess it could be worse right?

Ur probably htn with chad lite smv due to height

 

[genetically fucked]

dnr

 

[hunnidrounds]

I feel you OP. Instead of stressing out about how I'm going to get tens of thousands of dollars for my face with the situation I'm in I should just be somewhat grateful for what I have. I have mental illness too that makes me suicidal and I know it's not fun.

 

[hunnidrounds]

But why do some people get to be born Chad, I am a Christian but black pill is making me consider that Gnosticism is actually the truth.

I find it laughable that God gave his biggest enemy, The Devil, perfect beauty but supporters like us who would've appreciated it more are cursed with sub-5 looks. At the least Christians get glorified bodies in Heaven but there is no sex in Christian Heaven, this ain't islam nigga.