karbo
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i'm a 16 year old high schooler who just recently got a taste of partying and normie life. you know how it goes, basically 90% of the guys in school are not gl/popular, and the rest are the typical extroverted dudes who go out every weekend. i am not antisocial or anything, but im definitely not popular; i dont hug girls from other classes when im walking down the hallway in school.
around a week ago there was a small party in my classmate's house, and one of my girl classmates randomly texted me pretty flirtatiously that i should go. i wasnt that surprised, during school i've received quite a number of attention from girls, but i was always too much of an aspie to do something about it, even if the girl literally told me upfront that she liked me.
i asked my friend (guy) if he wanted to go, as i definitely didnt want to go alone. as expected he told me he'd rather stay home and play league of legends. at this point i almost texted back the girl 'sorry, i dont feel like going
' but then i said fuck it, im just gonna go.
i was legit filled with anxiety when i arrived at the house, the scenario of me going into a party where i cant really go up to anyone to talk to, just always looked horrific to me, but that's exactly what was happening.
after a while i started drinking alcohol and started enjoying myself. basically my inhibitions just vanished. whenever something came up in my head i just said it aloud, and everyone liked it actually.
i spent almost the whole night drinking and having fun with girls (the one that texted me + an other one (both cute))
i remember how they literally sat on the floor just to be next to me.. i remember how they had the drinks in their hands and how they put the straw in my mouth to drink.. then when we ordered pizza, i took a slice and fed it to her which was pretty hot tbh... told her to 'say aah' then put the pizza in her mouth and this went on for hours. legit felt like a slayer in those few hours, took some pics too.
next day when i went home and sobered up i just kept looking at the pics. this experience changed my whole perspective of my life. i am so close, yet so far from being a slayer. my looks, (((nt))) personality and humour perfectly reaches the threshold of being a typical popular kid, but i am so high inhib without being under the effects of alcohol.
whenever i looked at those pics i didnt see myself. i didnt instantly analyze my facial flaws like a psl autist. i just saw a teen normie fag who was partying with girls, the typical picture i see posted on instagram by random foids. the typical picture that usually makes me envious of the guy being in the centre of attention. it felt like the partying me was literally not me.
ever since then, im just not sure what to feel, and i cannot cope with the fact that i could have been popular and have much more girl friends if only i was NT, and didnt aspie out in every social situation...
hit me with those dn rd's
around a week ago there was a small party in my classmate's house, and one of my girl classmates randomly texted me pretty flirtatiously that i should go. i wasnt that surprised, during school i've received quite a number of attention from girls, but i was always too much of an aspie to do something about it, even if the girl literally told me upfront that she liked me.
i asked my friend (guy) if he wanted to go, as i definitely didnt want to go alone. as expected he told me he'd rather stay home and play league of legends. at this point i almost texted back the girl 'sorry, i dont feel like going
' but then i said fuck it, im just gonna go. i was legit filled with anxiety when i arrived at the house, the scenario of me going into a party where i cant really go up to anyone to talk to, just always looked horrific to me, but that's exactly what was happening.
after a while i started drinking alcohol and started enjoying myself. basically my inhibitions just vanished. whenever something came up in my head i just said it aloud, and everyone liked it actually.
i spent almost the whole night drinking and having fun with girls (the one that texted me + an other one (both cute))
i remember how they literally sat on the floor just to be next to me.. i remember how they had the drinks in their hands and how they put the straw in my mouth to drink.. then when we ordered pizza, i took a slice and fed it to her which was pretty hot tbh... told her to 'say aah' then put the pizza in her mouth and this went on for hours. legit felt like a slayer in those few hours, took some pics too.
next day when i went home and sobered up i just kept looking at the pics. this experience changed my whole perspective of my life. i am so close, yet so far from being a slayer. my looks, (((nt))) personality and humour perfectly reaches the threshold of being a typical popular kid, but i am so high inhib without being under the effects of alcohol.
whenever i looked at those pics i didnt see myself. i didnt instantly analyze my facial flaws like a psl autist. i just saw a teen normie fag who was partying with girls, the typical picture i see posted on instagram by random foids. the typical picture that usually makes me envious of the guy being in the centre of attention. it felt like the partying me was literally not me.
ever since then, im just not sure what to feel, and i cannot cope with the fact that i could have been popular and have much more girl friends if only i was NT, and didnt aspie out in every social situation...
hit me with those dn rd's
