struggling gymcel copes.

[SharpOrange]

I lack confidence and often feel sorry for myself.
I consider myself a loser, although I was in an even worse place last year.
Since then, I have made some improvements.
My acne has reduced, and I've been working out at the gym.
However, I haven't received any positive attention from women.
They say that going to the gym should boost your confidence, but I haven't experienced any mental benefits from it.
Now, I'm starting to doubt whether going to the gym is truly beneficial for me or if I'm just coping with loneliness by focusing on fitness.
In college, not even my female classmates accepted my friend requests.
I approached a few girls and faced rejection. This year,
I've stopped trying, but I still feel similar to how I used to feel—just with a bit more muscle.
Practically, it hasn't made a difference since I still haven't received the attention I desire from women.
I don't mind being in the same physical shape I was in a year ago; it wasn't bad—I had a skinny build like a marathon runner.
Now that I've gained muscle, it hasn't changed anything for me.


idk man what can be done now time is flying every second and i get frustrated with lack of pussy as each day goes.

i don't feel how i will survive in 2025.
it never began for me.
even if i hold hand or kiss a girl even once i will be happy but no god is punishing me

 

[SharpOrange]

today is last day of 2024.
i think i won't survive 2025.
i am actually done with my life.
there is nothing but loneliness misery, isolation, exactly like the depressed person from David foster Wallace.

jan 1 2025 i am starting countdown to my life ending.
i have no will to live anymore.
i basically rot besides i have gym which membership is expiring soon and now i don't even have money to sustain going to gym and taking diet.

i don't believe in Reincarnation, so if i die i will be free of being in existence.

existence is actually very sad affair.
sadness is only emotino i know.
There's always a reason to feel sad. And sadness can often feel more real and fuller as an emotion than happiness, and you get sort of addicted to sadness.

i made this thread like diary of my thoughts, i very much relate to .org user @disillusioned he is very realitypilled and see the world as it is.
now i tagged him in this post, idk if he reads this but he also feels the same about being alive ig.


new year new day i am the same old abused dog, there is no changing i will wallow in self-pity to enjoy the sadness as brutal as it sounds.
my melancholic mind is cooooked.

 

[abcd]

You got any friends irl? If I didn't I might feel like roping too tbh it's definitely the most important thing. If your in uni atleast make an effort to get some friends