Struggling with mental health and social skills at 18 years old

[roadtochang123]

You cant always blame genetics for anything

I had a terrible childhood, up until 11th grade of highschool. My life was basically LDAR and I always got bullied, or circled out socially from any friend groups I interacted with.

Its not like in a sense of total isolation, I grew up with a few friends and stuff but my family's mental wellbeings were not that great ever since I had my first consciousness. My mom was depressed because of years of suffering in marriage and my dad was also unwell mentally of a father figure. Southeast Asia basically, parents are really bad with their ways of showing emotions so they try to forcefully compress it down all of the time. I just realized that my mom didn't really love me and she's kind of a hollow of a human being, I wish I wasn't born at all

Now that transfered into some of my aspie tendencies (I grew up with unrestricted internet connection so yk how bad it goes)

I am desperately in need of a reason to work towards a better future, idk if that is possible granting how midget my intelligence is. I know I am just 18 and have no actual experiences about life but fuck man, it is getting awful

 

[Quicksand]

What do you want me to say? I don't want to give you generic advice because I think it's useless, and I don't like pretending that showing sympathy will help you

This is just a bump or something

 

[roadtochang123]

What do you want me to say? I don't want to give you generic advice because I think it's useless, and I don't like pretending that showing sympathy will help you

This is just a bump or something

I want you to buy me a dildo and stick it up my ass

Nigga its a venting session ✌ and mental health problems dont go away unless you find a way to cope urself so yeh writing things out kinda help me in a way