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all this aimless mental masturbation, all this clown show, all this lamenting, happens for 1 reason; NOT accepting my old itis' instagram back in 2020.
because if i had done that, i would have gotten a better insight on how she is and been more alert around her. knowledge is power after all.
now i got myself in a situation agonizing over a woman i havent seen in 5 years (and she wanted me to agonize) which would have been prevented if i was not emotional with her and maintained some level of contact. Could have just kept it at friendly terms amd accept being her personal jester.
i was weak basically. if i had exhausted my option with her she would have most likely blocked me and i would have completely moved on. because its better to hurt a lot for a few days than hurt a little for your whole life. i didnt act like a man, its not even a matter of looks, i just pussied out.
because if i had done that, i would have gotten a better insight on how she is and been more alert around her. knowledge is power after all.
now i got myself in a situation agonizing over a woman i havent seen in 5 years (and she wanted me to agonize) which would have been prevented if i was not emotional with her and maintained some level of contact. Could have just kept it at friendly terms amd accept being her personal jester.
i was weak basically. if i had exhausted my option with her she would have most likely blocked me and i would have completely moved on. because its better to hurt a lot for a few days than hurt a little for your whole life. i didnt act like a man, its not even a matter of looks, i just pussied out.
