Thanksgiving was a total loss

[Prøphet]

I hate being ND

There is literally nothing worse than being ND if you live in western civilization

 

[frentanyl]

I thought Thanksgiving was mainly about eating a meal with your family or something? Why are people on here talking about it as if it's a good day to get slays?
Unless you're trying to fuck your cousin or something (which I have tried and failed to do before to be fair)

 

[HundredManSlayer]

same i just stayed in my room the whole time

 

[Prøphet]

I thought Thanksgiving was mainly about eating a meal with your family or something? Why are people on here talking about it as if it's a good day to get slays?
Unless you're trying to fuck your cousin or something (which I have tried and failed to do before to be fair)

It’s not about slays I just utterly failed at NTmaxxing and acted like the total nd freak I am in front of everybody

 

[Prøphet]

same i just stayed in my room the whole time

I should’ve done that, nothing could’ve prepared me for how bad “Muh nt” attempt would go

 

[Just Blast]

me looking at my grandparents after i put on a suspicious amount of muscle and growth in the 2 months they didn’t see me

 

[Prøphet]

me looking at my grandparents after i put on a suspicious amount of muscle and growth in the 2 months they didn’t see me

I wish I had even one thing to show for the past year of my life

 

[Just Blast]

I wish I had even one thing to show for the past year of my life

all i have is appearance

 

[m0ss26]

my mom and sis are out of town and my knee got obliterated and gyms are closed today so all break i havent been doing shit but lifting and sitting in my room. i need to get back to training.

also being ND is nightmare, my dad had people over and i just sat here playing league like a faggot cause god forbid i have to speak to someone.

 

[greycellbrill]

all i have is appearance

don't we all, still fucking choke up when i talk to foids

 

[Zefus]

my mom and sis are out of town and my knee got obliterated and gyms are closed today so all break i havent been doing shit but lifting and sitting in my room. i need to get back to training.

also being ND is nightmare, my dad had people over and i just sat here playing league like a faggot cause god forbid i have to speak to someone.

you gotta practice socializing

 

[Just Blast]

don't we all, still fucking choke up when i talk to foids

i don’t have to talk to foids i have a girlfriend

 

[m0ss26]

you gotta practice socializing

im fine socializing when its people i know or even randoms but not certain persian adults. i fucking hate that shit. but you are right

 

[greycellbrill]

you gotta practice socializing

3 sets of conversation with 2 in rir if need be

 

[Zefus]

im fine socializing when its people i know or even randoms but not certain persian adults. i fucking hate that shit. but you are right

that’s fair, persian adults being excluded won’t really hurt you

 

[Prøphet]

my mom and sis are out of town and my knee got obliterated and gyms are closed today so all break i havent been doing shit but lifting and sitting in my room. i need to get back to training.

also being ND is nightmare, my dad had people over and i just sat here playing league like a faggot cause god forbid i have to speak to someone.

Deadass would’ve been better optics if I didn’t show up at allI royally fucked this shit up bro I mean from the get go the first words out of my mouth were wrong I don’t want to remember this evening because it went so bad so much awkward silence I didn’t know how to fill you can’t convince me anything is worse than the nd and this is coming from a genuine sub4 I’d take ultra nt brain chemistry any day

 

[Zefus]

3 sets of conversation with 2 in rir if need be

no do it to failure

 

[greycellbrill]

i don’t have to talk to foids i have a girlfriend

miss my ex sometimes, but the stress man

 

[Just Blast]

miss my ex sometimes, but the stress man

just do your own thing, if they wanna act like a whore that’s on them and you handle it accordingly

 

[m0ss26]

Deadass would’ve been better optics if I didn’t show up at allI royally fucked this shit up bro I mean from the get go the first words out of my mouth were wrong I don’t want to remember this evening because it went so bad so much awkward silence I didn’t know how to fill you can’t convince me anything is worse than the nd and this is coming from a genuine sub4 I’d take ultra nt brain chemistry any day

i know this feeling all to well. The shame i feel sometimes looking back at past social scenarios fucking rapes my mental i die inside a little each time

its truly brutal being ND

 

[Prøphet]

my mom and sis are out of town and my knee got obliterated and gyms are closed today so all break i havent been doing shit but lifting and sitting in my room. i need to get back to training.

also being ND is nightmare, my dad had people over and i just sat here playing league like a faggot cause god forbid i have to speak to someone.

Also J forgot to mention I got CALLED OUT for saying shit that didn’t even make any sense because of how high inhib I am, it’s actually fucking over ngl

 

[FiendFiend]

I hate being ND

There is literally nothing worse than being ND if you live in western civilization

Benzos only thing keeping me sane in social scenarios

 

[m0ss26]

Also J forgot to mention I got CALLED OUT for saying shit that didn’t even make any sense because of how high inhib I am, it’s actually fucking over ngl

bro what did you say did a family member call you out or what

 

[Prøphet]

bro what did you say did a family member call you out or what

instead of saying “I do” I said “it does”

What the actual fuck nigga I need to fucking unplug my internet and move to a monastery my brain is actually fried

 

[m0ss26]

instead of saying “I do” I said “it does”

What the actual fuck nigga I need to fucking unplug my internet and move to a monastery my brain is actually fried

nigga ur good that not even bad

WE shall be moving to the monastery and abstaining from foids and socializing though

 

[FiendFiend]

I thought Thanksgiving was mainly about eating a meal with your family or something? Why are people on here talking about it as if it's a good day to get slays?
Unless you're trying to fuck your cousin or something (which I have tried and failed to do before to be fair)

holy fuck ts went thru ur head completely. This is how I know ur not one of us

 

[FiendFiend]

instead of saying “I do” I said “it does”

What the actual fuck nigga I need to fucking unplug my internet and move to a monastery my brain is actually fried

it does is wild nigga is speaking in third person they must think ur fucking insane.

Its a hardknock life for us ND retards

 

[FiendFiend]

It’s not about slays I just utterly failed at NTmaxxing and acted like the total nd freak I am in front of everybody

this is why id rather LDAR go mentally insane in this mumbai mental assylum than work a job where i gotta talk to people actively or see people, nightshifts or death atp, i dont wanna talk to anyone, not even family

 

[Prøphet]

it does is wild nigga is speaking in third person they must think ur fucking insane.

Its a hardknock life for us ND retards

Bro atp I need to be fucking 8psl to compensate for this shit fuck it I’m getting every single surgery for people to accept who I am because I am such a severe case It will never change I am perma fucked

 

[Prøphet]

Stg no one here is more nd than me none of you niggas know this level of struggle

 

[FiendFiend]

Bro atp I need to be fucking 8psl to compensate for this shit fuck it I’m getting every single surgery for people to accept who I am because I am such a severe case It will never change I am perma fucked

looksmaxxing is always a lifemax, dont get me wrong, i have been treated better by ascending but at the end of the day if ur a special retard who dont wanna talk to everyone, feels super indecisive, people will notice. Thats why i literally take drugs to even talk to people, I'd rather people hear the drug talking, because more people are familiar to a drug talking to them than by ND ass talking to them.

even when i had like customers try talk to me in my last job it was like absolute fucking hell, even on benzos, it honestly was bad but it could have been worse, i acted like a deer caught in headlights.

I dont see how i'll get anything done unless i look very good, and get positive reinforcement from that or drug myself to the shitter

 

[FiendFiend]

Stg no one here is more nd than me none of you niggas know this level of struggle

i bar for bar have same stories as u, nigga u need to get a diagnosis and tell me what u get like what specific type of autism or whatever neurodivergence u have.

I no joke go everyday exchanging like a couple words and thats my sentences for my day. Whenever i speak to someone like im really really used to though I speak like a social butterfly and can yap like a mfer. But then you dont see them for some months, or u dont have that everyday and u crawl back into not even bothering making new friends or doing new shit cuz its honestly like fucking mental torture.

 

[Prøphet]

i bar for bar have same stories as u, nigga u need to get a diagnosis and tell me what u get like what specific type of autism or whatever neurodivergence u have.

I no joke go everyday exchanging like a couple words and thats my sentences for my day. Whenever i speak to someone like im really really used to though I speak like a social butterfly and can yap like a mfer. But then you dont see them for some months, or u dont have that everyday and u crawl back into not even bothering making new friends or doing new shit cuz its honestly like fucking mental torture.

Literally me nigga, I can act a lil normal if I have the energy and ik the person I’m talking to we’ll but if it’s someone idk well I get anxious asf and just manage to screw up every single detail fuck this

I can’t get a diagnosis because my family doesn’t understand it and would 100% treat me worse if it was on paper tbh

 

[Acquiescence]

Same here

I’m only getting worse over time, I fear how I will be even 5 years from now

 

[Prøphet]

Same here

I’m only getting worse over time, I fear how I will be even 5 years from now

The only option is to make yourself so appealing to people that being nt doesn’t matter as much tbh

Its a shitty fix and I hope they make a cure one day but deep down Ik that’s impossible leaving me confused and recessed with my malformed frontal lobe and undergrown mandible as everyone glances around uncomfortably and gets up to leave

 

[Meteor21]

Nah, family gatherings are weird as fuck. These people you see/talk to like 3 times a year if that and they pry into your personal life and make weird small talk

 

[Prøphet]

Nah, family gatherings are weird as fuck. These people you see/talk to like 3 times a year if that and they pry into your personal life and make weird small talk

Normal people have the built in skills to successfully navigate around the awkwardness and minimize it

 

[Willmogulater]

 

[Deleted member 270543]

I hate being ND

There is literally nothing worse than being ND if you live in western civilization

youre diagnosed bud ? if not then yu arent ND

 

[Prøphet]

youre diagnosed bud ? if not then yu arent ND

Nigga did you read what I said there’s no way in hell I can be nt