disillusioned
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It's known that having depression can cause sexual issues, but the blackpill goes way beyond that, ESPECIALLY once you're over 30 and objectively no longer 'in your prime'.
The thing is, sex is extremely psychological. It's not just about the physical ability to become erect (though even that will get worse also because your veins become worse as you age, especially if you drank heavily for years like I did). For sexual arousal to happen, your brain needs to be convinced that 'breeding' is even a plausible scenario in the first place. This is the reason for why even most incels can suspend disbelief during their teen and early 20s (the pre-blackpill years for most of them), allowing them to get horny, masturbate, be aroused by porn, etc. It's because at that point in time, the idea of getting laid doesn't seem entirely like a fantasy.
But once you've 'seen enough' (and this is made all the worse by aging), it becomes increasingly impossible to trick your brain (and yourself) into seeing sex as something that's obtainable. You just start realizing and accepting that 'it's over' and none of your mental gymnastics work anymore. You can't even get hard or aroused while watching porn (because you know it's all an unobtainable fantasy) and you start masturbating less and less, basically giving up on sex entirely.
I'm now at the point where I have basically semi-ED. It's not that I physically cannot get erections (I still get morning wood), I'm just not mentally there. I can't get horny because my brain knows that there is no point fantasizing about impossible situations. I'm no longer young. I'm a norwooding man of early middle-age with no SMV whatsoever and it's fucking over for me, and my brain is literally telling me that I should just stop giving af.
It seems absurd, but I was unironically happier during my bluepiller days even despite all the bullshit, because at least then I could still jack off to porn and get decent orgasms that way. Now I can't do even this.
The thing is, sex is extremely psychological. It's not just about the physical ability to become erect (though even that will get worse also because your veins become worse as you age, especially if you drank heavily for years like I did). For sexual arousal to happen, your brain needs to be convinced that 'breeding' is even a plausible scenario in the first place. This is the reason for why even most incels can suspend disbelief during their teen and early 20s (the pre-blackpill years for most of them), allowing them to get horny, masturbate, be aroused by porn, etc. It's because at that point in time, the idea of getting laid doesn't seem entirely like a fantasy.
But once you've 'seen enough' (and this is made all the worse by aging), it becomes increasingly impossible to trick your brain (and yourself) into seeing sex as something that's obtainable. You just start realizing and accepting that 'it's over' and none of your mental gymnastics work anymore. You can't even get hard or aroused while watching porn (because you know it's all an unobtainable fantasy) and you start masturbating less and less, basically giving up on sex entirely.
I'm now at the point where I have basically semi-ED. It's not that I physically cannot get erections (I still get morning wood), I'm just not mentally there. I can't get horny because my brain knows that there is no point fantasizing about impossible situations. I'm no longer young. I'm a norwooding man of early middle-age with no SMV whatsoever and it's fucking over for me, and my brain is literally telling me that I should just stop giving af.
It seems absurd, but I was unironically happier during my bluepiller days even despite all the bullshit, because at least then I could still jack off to porn and get decent orgasms that way. Now I can't do even this.
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