the blackpill destroyed me

[Deleted member 11292]

since December of last year, I can't even look my mother in the eye because of my insecurities.

when I did go outside I was always hardmewing + squinting, twisting my nose constantly trying to temporarily un deviate my septum just enough to feel worthy of looking at something besides my shoes.

(I'm 16, turn 17 in june)

I hate my father almost as much as I hate myself.

neither of my parents understand my suffering, but my mother is much more compassionate and can let go of her ego for a second to be supportive.

I can't eat dinner with my family, I can't go outside. It's the reason I dropped out of school, lost all my friends, and hobbies.

I can barely get out of bed to eat, can't even feed myself, or stay on a sleep schedule.

my only hope is a job opportunity that fell on my lap this summer. don't even ask how I expect to hold that down. it's wageslave for surgery or suicide ngl.

I doubt i'm actually capable of killing myself, but if i can't at least get rhinoseptoplasty before my teenage years are over idk how tf I'm going to cope.

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tagging the people keeping me alive:
@zikzog
@Adriana Lima
@Chad1212
@BIGDICCJIM
@Knight
@volcelfatcel
@eyelidcel
@Bitch
@kjsbdfiusdf
@MarkCorrigan
@Original
@qwertyqazqwerty

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[Cigarette]

at least you arent fat

 

[Deleted member 11758]

try taking a break from the forum and focus on just living a normal life, autistically focusing on the blackpill all day is just gonna hurt you mentally

 

[Argentina]

the blackpill didnt do anything chad knows about blackpill and is happy the reason you have a shit life is because you are ugly

 

[Deleted member 8576]

 

[Adriana Lima]

bruh you aint even terrible looking just lurk more

 

[Deleted member 5189]

since December of last year, I can't even look my mother in the eye because of my insecurities.

when I did go outside I was always hardmewing + squinting, twisting my nose constantly trying to temporarily un deviate my septum just enough to feel worthy of looking at something besides my shoes.

Are you really ugly enough that you should be feeling so insecure?

I hate my father almost as much as I hate myself.

neither of my parents understand my suffering, but my mother is much more compassionate and can let go of her ego for a second to be supportive.

I can't eat dinner with my family, I can't go outside. It's the reason I dropped out of school, lost all my friends, and hobbies.

I can barely get out of bed to eat, can't even feed myself, or stay on a sleep schedule.

my only hope is a job opportunity that fell on my lap this summer. don't even ask how I expect to hold that down. it's wageslave for surgery or suicide ngl.

I doubt i'm actually capable of killing myself, but if i can't at least get rhinoseptoplasty before my teenage years are over idk how tf I'm going to cope.

How tf is this to do with the blackpill

 

[Deleted member 11292]

Are you really ugly enough that you should be feeling so insecure?

probably not, but i can't cope with my flaws.

How tf is this to do with the blackpill

they're the impacts. i hate my parents and friends and cant do any of those things because i'm just so ashamed/depressed.

 

[Deleted member 5189]

probably not, but i can't cope with my flaws.

Then why worry? U must be malnourished or have low t levels. You also have flowers in your avi and give off a similar vibe to grimba so I'm probably right. Eat more meat.

they're the impacts. i hate my parents and friends and cant do any of those things because i'm just so ashamed/depressed.

I don't understand

 

[Deleted member 9670]

Idk what you look like but if you're 16 then you're not done developing

 

[crosshold]

youll get over it, a lot of us have had a similar phase

 

[Deleted member 6531]

Once you start going outside you'll definitely realise there's a lot of truth to the black pill but it's not 100% correct

Also you need to get off blackpill forums and get off looksmax and shit if it's affecting you that badly.

Nobody analyses your flaws and shit like psl people do on here and there's only been like 10,000 of us who have ever made an account.

There are people out there who are 5'7 balding, have shit eyes and don't mew who are getting laid and don't have a single clue about the blackpill, meanwhile here you are thinking everyone knows you're ugly and you're super isnecure about yourself when literally nobody fucking knows.

Get off forums, go socialise with people and go get a job and start talking to your family. Life isn't the black pill and if you live you're life according to the blackpill you're gonna end up alone and isolated and depressed

 

[zeke714]

Blackpill made me LDAR ngl

 

[Bitch]

You are just depressed my nigga, it'll pass just try to get a hobby or something that will keep you busy in life

 

[Laylow225]

While you feel ugly and don’t go out
Popular nt subhuman takes off becky/Stacy lite virginity (true story even if she dumped him after)

 

[eyelidcel]

Villain origin story ngl

 

[LILMAXILLA]

I can't even look my mother in the eye because of my insecurities.

I hate my father almost as much as I hate myself.

neither of my parents understand my suffering

I can't eat dinner with my family

Tbh sounds like your parents fucked you up. Most likely they failed to support you emotionally hence why you are so depressed and socially anxious as a teenager. Obviously looks play a role too, but imo the biggest factor and the biggest blackpill is that your parents fucked you up mentally. This was out of your control and yet you have to suffer the consequences. There's no easy fix, you have to build yourself up from this really shitty starting point. First step should be to start seeing a psychiatrist.