The blackpill has completely obliterated me

[4everDark]

02/01/2025

When I got blackpilled it feels like a part of me died that night. I have no energy or motivation to do anything and all I think about is the blackpill and other incels. It feels like I’ve been chained in a small room and forgotten, basically I’m alive, but my body is dead. I’m completely alone in life and don’t have any friends or family around me and I don’t need any. It’s my 4th year now of living with the blackpill and it looks like my life will remain this way 4ever. It makes me sad knowing most blackpillers including me will die kiss less forgotten virgins. Normies and women think the blackpill is a joke and make fun of us for being incels. Most of them don’t understand our lives are complete hell and how we struggle just to get through the day. Everyday we hope we’re going to meet some cute foid who will come into our life and give us what we’re looking for. You got to realize if you’re under 6ft, not a htn, chad or chad light its completely over for you. Nowadays women have this super inflated standard, any men under 6ft, ltn, mtn no matter his skills or education is considered ugly. Women don’t want to be approached or have anything to do with you, even your own family and parents could hate you.

My depression, OCD and bipolar 1 have gotten worse. I wash my hands so much that my skin cracks and I need to superglue those cuts because my hands won’t heal if I don’t. Everyday I wake up and immediately the blackpill and all this shit comes to mind. That’s why I spend the entire day in my room listening to loud music with my earbuds on and doing whatever to forget it. I fall asleep by watching porn completely on mute because that’s relaxing and it helps me get those sex dreams. The only time I’m not suffering is when I’m asleep, I’ve never dreamed about the blackpill or been called an incel in a dream. I stopped wearing my retainer because women don’t care if you have nice teeth when your face is ugly. When I wake up I usually find the phone right next to me stuck on what I’ve been watching.

4everDark​

Below are some photos of my hands and current living situation to show how bad things are (ignore the holes that's a whole different story).

 

[Deleted member 125227]

You're a pussy.

 

[smartstyle]

Follow this protocol

HIGH IQ - BlackPill is a LIE.

TLDR - Blackpill is biggest lie that you heard. Its not over. You should take the LIfeMaxxPill. Stop being rotter. (that's me looking at you bastards reading this) Soundtrack of the thread You're all poisoning your minds, you will never recover if you don't leave soon. There are studies...

looksmax.org

 

[Cyrus]

it was already obliterating you
NQW YUQ KNQW what was obliterating you

 

[smartstyle]

It’s my 4th year now of living with the blackpill and it looks like my life will remain this way 4ever. It makes me sad knowing most blackpillers including me will die kiss less forgotten virgins. Normies and women think the blackpill is a joke and make fun of us for being incels. Most of them don’t understand our lives are complete hell and how we struggle just to get through the day. Everyday we hope we’re going to meet some cute foid who will come into our life and give us what we’re looking for. You got to realize if you’re under 6ft, not a htn, chad or chad light its completely over for you. Nowadays women have this super inflated standard, any men under 6ft, ltn, mtn no matter his skills or education is considered ugly. Women don’t want to be approached or have anything to do with you, even your own family and parents could hate you.

Crab in bucket mentality effect. Loser mentality. Kys or start doing something fag. I can feel loser energy from screen tbh.

 

[4everDark]

Crab in bucket mentality effect. Loser mentality. Kys or start doing something fag. I can feel loser energy from screen tbh.

I'm moneymaxxed thinking about making a post on that soon.

 

[smartstyle]

I'm moneymaxxed thinking about making a post on that soon.

So you got a job and money. Then why fucking rot, go buy a nice bike and headphones and go for a ride to some rural areas and naturemaxx

 

[4everDark]

So you got a job and money. Then why fucking rot, go buy a nice bike and headphones and go for a ride to some rural areas and naturemaxx

Have you read my story? Women hate men like me https://looksmax.org/threads/i-had-...experience-with-a-foid.1303508/#post-19080227

 

[TiktokUser]

Enter your Batman arc and get really good at everything

You should use turn hatred you have for others to ascend and become better than them ️️️️

 

[shootleon]

So you got a job and money. Then why fucking rot, go buy a nice bike and headphones and go for a ride to some rural areas and naturemaxx

wow i didn’t know the mods started allowing blue pilled retards in this forum

 

[smartstyle]

wow i didn’t know the mods started allowing blue pilled retards in this forum

you are fag + pfp explains + pattern recognized + its whitepill to get happy you fag. kiss yourself.

 

[4everDark]

you are fag + pfp explains + pattern recognized + its whitepill to get happy you fag. kiss yourself.

Great job now let’s see what you look like!

 

[4everDark]

wow i didn’t know the mods started allowing blue pilled retards in this forum

I’m blackpilled and redpilled.

 

[Deleted member 125227]

You seem easily influenced. You read a bunch of posts on the Internet and it absolutely destroyed you mentally. People like you wouldn't survive outside of the bubble of modern western civilization.

 

[LKSMAXPerson]

a house no woman would love

 

[Deleted member 91545]

Dude thats just ezcema

 

[4everDark]

You seem easily influenced. You read a bunch of posts on the Internet and it absolutely destroyed you mentally. People like you wouldn't survive outside of the bubble of modern western civilization.

Have you read my story? https://looksmax.org/threads/i-had-...experience-with-a-foid.1303508/#post-19069899

 

[Deleted member 125227]

Have you read my story? https://looksmax.org/threads/i-had-...experience-with-a-foid.1303508/#post-19069899

I did! You ignored so many red flags, etc. I can write it off to inexperience, but by now you got to learn. I might had a similar mental state as you at one point. Now I look back and cringe at how pathetic I was. World can be a shit place, but you can't let it roll you over. Best of luck.

 

[smartstyle]

Great job now let’s see what you look like!

Not posting + I was low end average(mid ltn) now I am high end average high mtn/low htn.

What's your point?

 

[Kroker]

You've mentioned that you're moneymaxxed, do few soft/hardmaxxes your base is decent to begin with.

Beautiful foids are everywhere just get ready

 

[BornToBeArnold]

Weird, gay alien hands.

 

[4everDark]

Weird, gay alien hands.

Yes, you’re absolutely correct they’re very subhuman.

 

[6’3 MTN Cutecel]

You're a pussy.

Keep living a lie idiot

 

[Klasik616]

Why do you live in such a big house just for you

 

[1966Ford]

George Orwell once said: The most terrible loneliness is not the kind that comes from being alone, but the kind that comes from being misunderstood; the loneliness of standing in a crowded room, surrounded by people who do not see you, who do not hear you, who do not know the true essence of who you are. And in that loneliness, you feel as though you are fading, disappearing into the background, until you are nothing more than a ghost, a shadow of your former self.

It’s that soul-deep ache of being surrounded by people—friends, family, colleagues—yet feeling completely invisible. You may smile, nod, and go through the motions, but inside, you feel a sense of isolation that words can’t fully capture. You feel as though no one truly gets you, as if the truest parts of you are hidden, left unrecognized, while the world only acknowledges the version of you that fits in.

This kind of loneliness hits hard because it isn’t about the absence of people; it’s about the absence of connection. You crave to be seen for who you really are, to have someone understand your soul’s language, your quirks, your dreams, and the complexities of your heart. But when you’re misunderstood, it feels as if there’s an unbridgeable gap between your inner world and the outside one. It’s like standing behind a glass wall, desperately hoping someone will look through and truly see you, only to realize they’re gazing right past you.

In that space of feeling unknown, you start to question yourself. You wonder if you should change, if you should become what the world expects or desires, just to feel a hint of acceptance. But even then, the loneliness doesn’t vanish; it only grows. Because the deeper tragedy is the slow fading of your own essence, the parts of you that you start to hide or let go of, simply to belong. You become a shadow, a ghost of the vibrant self you once were, drifting silently, holding onto the hope that one day, someone might understand.

What makes this kind of loneliness so painful is that it’s not just the longing to be loved—it’s the longing to be known, and loved for being known. For someone to look at the parts of you that are messy, complicated, and even broken, and to say, “I see you. I understand. And I’m here.” It’s the yearning for someone to hear your heart’s quietest whispers and to feel the depths of your soul without judgment or expectation.

Yet, even in that terrible loneliness, there’s a quiet strength. There’s a resilience in holding onto your essence, even when it feels invisible. There’s courage in keeping your light alive, in refusing to let the world’s misunderstanding extinguish the fire within you. You may feel unseen, but the truth is, your uniqueness, your complexity, is what makes you extraordinary. Somewhere, someone will value that. And until then, you can value that.

Sometimes, the journey through being misunderstood leads to a deeper understanding of yourself. It teaches you to embrace who you are, even if the world isn’t ready to. It invites you to find peace in your own company, to nurture the parts of yourself that feel lonely and unacknowledged. And, in time, you may discover that the right connections—the ones that see you, hear you, and know you—come when you least expect them.

So, hold on. Keep your essence alive. Refuse to become a shadow, even if that means standing alone for a while. Your true self deserves to be celebrated, and though the wait may feel long, the beauty of being fully known is worth every moment. Your people—the ones who truly understand your soul—are out there, and when they find you, the terrible loneliness will start to fade. You’ll realize that your essence was never meant to be hidden. It was always meant to shine.

 

[1966Ford]

Why do you live in such a big house just for you

Notch 2.0

 

[4everDark]

Because I inherited it, I plan to move to Europe.