disillusioned
Kraken
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I miss my naive youth and childerhood years so fucking much. Yes it was still full of bullshit and I still had lots of problems even back then, but at least I didn't feel completely dead inside. I still experienced the occasional dose of happiness.
The problem is that once you've consumed high enough of a blackpill dose, it becomes impossible to feel excited about anything. All the traditional sources of happiness (family, nation, religion, love, sex, looking forward to the future, etc) are gone, and worse yet, you know that it was ALWAYS bullshit.
I'm convinced that the vast majority of human beings are inherently bluepilled because natural selection literally selects for it. Most men would just rope or go ER if they ever truly became blackpilled. I feel like i have essentially no reason for existing. Nothing matters. Everything is meaningless. Nobody loves me and nobody cares. I'm essentially just counting down the days until I die. And things will only get worse in the future, not better, because of economic and political trends.
Everything is so completely and utterly fucked it's not even funny.
The problem is that once you've consumed high enough of a blackpill dose, it becomes impossible to feel excited about anything. All the traditional sources of happiness (family, nation, religion, love, sex, looking forward to the future, etc) are gone, and worse yet, you know that it was ALWAYS bullshit.
I'm convinced that the vast majority of human beings are inherently bluepilled because natural selection literally selects for it. Most men would just rope or go ER if they ever truly became blackpilled. I feel like i have essentially no reason for existing. Nothing matters. Everything is meaningless. Nobody loves me and nobody cares. I'm essentially just counting down the days until I die. And things will only get worse in the future, not better, because of economic and political trends.
Everything is so completely and utterly fucked it's not even funny.
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