6ft4
Juggernaut Genes Possessor
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I believe the power of your essence (soul, spirit, whatever terms you want to use) can be close to unlimited but when it is placed into a body it becomes heavily limited
I often feel a sense of nagging frustration that I am not achieving the things I want to achieve and for some reason hesitating and holding myself back.
When I break things down I really just want to exercise my power far more than I want to be content in the moment
You could argue that exercising my power would make me content but there's something about them that's different
Most normies can work a 9-5 and hedonism max and just be a slob who eats goyslop and creampies his GF a couple of times a week and not desire a single additional thing.
I fall into the trap of embracing comfort by spending hours per day watching interesting youtube vids or browsing PSL but the more time I subtract from doing things that can help grow my power, the more agitated I become.
If I could spend 16 hours per day doing things that gave me a sense of achivement because I felt it was helping me progress and grow my power I would do it
But it's the uncertainty of not knowing whether the work will eventually pay off that holds me back
Whenever i seen guys walking along with their GFs I never felt envious because i always felt i had to reach my final destination after going through significant ascension and conquering before I could be content with just one foid
Until I become that man, the idea of just getting a foid tomorrow and saying the game's over now seems ludacrus
I must reach the ascent and climb the highest peaks
Sometimes I feel a surge of energy flowing through me like my spirit is being awakened and it wants to assert itself on the world but there is no avenue to release it and my body serves to limit and neuter it
If you've ever been on MDMA and start doing weird fidgety shit with your hands stretching out and rolling your fingers around due to feeling giga restless, thats how I feel when Im in this energetic state where my essence is trying to escape but it simply cant, its locked in the prison of my body
This is why I have such an eagerness towards violence (particularly of opposing races)
If I can not assert my power through creative or hierarchy rising methods I must use violence to find a release
When I go mentalcel after alcohol consumption I often seek violent encounters because my shadow self and more primal self comes to the forefront of my mind and it can simply no longer handle the trapped energy inside myself
I often feel a sense of nagging frustration that I am not achieving the things I want to achieve and for some reason hesitating and holding myself back.
When I break things down I really just want to exercise my power far more than I want to be content in the moment
You could argue that exercising my power would make me content but there's something about them that's different
Most normies can work a 9-5 and hedonism max and just be a slob who eats goyslop and creampies his GF a couple of times a week and not desire a single additional thing.
I fall into the trap of embracing comfort by spending hours per day watching interesting youtube vids or browsing PSL but the more time I subtract from doing things that can help grow my power, the more agitated I become.
If I could spend 16 hours per day doing things that gave me a sense of achivement because I felt it was helping me progress and grow my power I would do it
But it's the uncertainty of not knowing whether the work will eventually pay off that holds me back
Whenever i seen guys walking along with their GFs I never felt envious because i always felt i had to reach my final destination after going through significant ascension and conquering before I could be content with just one foid
Until I become that man, the idea of just getting a foid tomorrow and saying the game's over now seems ludacrus
I must reach the ascent and climb the highest peaks
Sometimes I feel a surge of energy flowing through me like my spirit is being awakened and it wants to assert itself on the world but there is no avenue to release it and my body serves to limit and neuter it
If you've ever been on MDMA and start doing weird fidgety shit with your hands stretching out and rolling your fingers around due to feeling giga restless, thats how I feel when Im in this energetic state where my essence is trying to escape but it simply cant, its locked in the prison of my body
This is why I have such an eagerness towards violence (particularly of opposing races)
If I can not assert my power through creative or hierarchy rising methods I must use violence to find a release
When I go mentalcel after alcohol consumption I often seek violent encounters because my shadow self and more primal self comes to the forefront of my mind and it can simply no longer handle the trapped energy inside myself
