the fuck do i even do

[chocolateorrawliver]

I just got played by a girl and for the first time in at least 5 years, i cried. I sat in my room for at least 2 hours and filled pools on my blanket. I wasn’t really that sad about the girl, i barely knew her but for some reason today was the first time in very long i actually got emotional. My grades are slipping, im so deep in this rabbit hole i cant look myself in the mirror anymore and i have nobody to call and vent to because 1. im a dude 2. to everyone in my life im a secondary. Always dapped up when we run into eachother, never invited to anything at all. I just workout til im numb and then go sit in my room, socializing just enough with my family so they dont think im going insane. Writing this makes me realize i can only really open up behind a username and a green C as a profile picture. I dont wanna do this anymore.

 

[DRACOX]

I just got played by a girl and for the first time in at least 5 years, i cried. I sat in my room for at least 2 hours and filled pools on my blanket. I wasn’t really that sad about the girl, i barely knew her but for some reason today was the first time in very long i actually got emotional. My grades are slipping, im so deep in this rabbit hole i cant look myself in the mirror anymore and i have nobody to call and vent to because 1. im a dude 2. to everyone in my life im a secondary. Always dapped up when we run into eachother, never invited to anything at all. I just workout til im numb and then go sit in my room, socializing just enough with my family so they dont think im going insane. Writing this makes me realize i can only really open up behind a username and a green C as a profile picture. I dont wanna do this anymore.

I also get attached to girls easily. Sometimes i dm a girl and talk with her for a day only to realise i dont like her, but still i feel attached.

I get emotionally confused easily. When that happens focusing on anything in life is hard.

Its hard for men who are emotional in todays society but you need to get through it.

 

[chocolateorrawliver]

I also get attached to girls easily. Sometimes i dm a girl and talk with her for a day only to realise i dont like her, but still i feel attached.

I get emotionally confused easily. When that happens focusing on anything in life is hard.

Its hard for men who are emotional in todays society but you need to get through it.

not even attached to her but something happened this weekend that made me relax and suddenly feel emotions again i have been numb for at least 5 years so when she did play me i realised how miserable i somehow am

 

[DRACOX]

not even attached to her but something happened this weekend that made me relax and suddenly feel emotions again i have been numb for at least 5 years so when she did play me i realised how miserable i somehow am

I know how you feel. Like trust me i know. Once i also realised how lonely and numb i had been, i now feel so weird. Like i feel bad for myself but also scared that i might be the rest of my life like this.