River25
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A short but insightful rant by my ltn self LOL
I’ve noticed something consistent about the way I view myself. That is, I almost always overestimate who I am, what I can do, and where I stand relative to others. And its really not intentional arrogance, it just seems to be the natural state of the human mind. As I move through different stages of life (16 now), I slowly drift closer to a more accurate picture of myself. Yet that truth is never fully reached. There’s always a gap between who I think I am and who I actually am.
Looking back, I constantly uncover moments where my self-evaluation was inflated beyond fucking belief. What’s striking is that it’s never that I underestimated myself; it’s always that I thought I was slightly (even sometimes a lot) better than I truly was. This applies to everything: how I thought I looked, how skilled I believed I was in sports or academics, how socially intelligent I imagined myself to be, and even how logical I thought I was compared to my past self.
I wanted to make this post to see if other people agree. I see it as humans who imagine ourselves as people who are “working on ourselves” or “becoming better” simply because we think about improvement often. But thinking about being better sometimes tricks us into feeling like we’re actually growing, even when we haven’t taken a single real step. I quite literally will catch myself researching endlessly on this fucking forum, watching videos on reconstituting, making full docs to improve myself, reading articles, consuming advice, and afterward I feel as if I’ve made progress. As if knowledge alone has moved me forward. In reality, nothing has changed. No action was taken. No habit was built. No Aqualx was injected into my fucking face (im a pussy who doesnt wanna paralyze myself).
It’s almost like the mind rewards intention instead of execution. The moment I think about becoming better, my brain gives me a small hit of satisfaction, a preview of the person I want to become (i notice this a lot when i watch bp edits and imagine myself as the guys inside of it, easy dopamine spike JFL). But that preview is deceptive. It convinces me that I’ve already traveled part of the path, when I haven’t even taken the first step.
To all you mfs on this forum, unless you’re aware of it, really aware of it, it becomes easy to spend years imagining growth instead of creating it.
I’ve noticed something consistent about the way I view myself. That is, I almost always overestimate who I am, what I can do, and where I stand relative to others. And its really not intentional arrogance, it just seems to be the natural state of the human mind. As I move through different stages of life (16 now), I slowly drift closer to a more accurate picture of myself. Yet that truth is never fully reached. There’s always a gap between who I think I am and who I actually am.
Looking back, I constantly uncover moments where my self-evaluation was inflated beyond fucking belief. What’s striking is that it’s never that I underestimated myself; it’s always that I thought I was slightly (even sometimes a lot) better than I truly was. This applies to everything: how I thought I looked, how skilled I believed I was in sports or academics, how socially intelligent I imagined myself to be, and even how logical I thought I was compared to my past self.
I wanted to make this post to see if other people agree. I see it as humans who imagine ourselves as people who are “working on ourselves” or “becoming better” simply because we think about improvement often. But thinking about being better sometimes tricks us into feeling like we’re actually growing, even when we haven’t taken a single real step. I quite literally will catch myself researching endlessly on this fucking forum, watching videos on reconstituting, making full docs to improve myself, reading articles, consuming advice, and afterward I feel as if I’ve made progress. As if knowledge alone has moved me forward. In reality, nothing has changed. No action was taken. No habit was built. No Aqualx was injected into my fucking face (im a pussy who doesnt wanna paralyze myself).
It’s almost like the mind rewards intention instead of execution. The moment I think about becoming better, my brain gives me a small hit of satisfaction, a preview of the person I want to become (i notice this a lot when i watch bp edits and imagine myself as the guys inside of it, easy dopamine spike JFL). But that preview is deceptive. It convinces me that I’ve already traveled part of the path, when I haven’t even taken the first step.
To all you mfs on this forum, unless you’re aware of it, really aware of it, it becomes easy to spend years imagining growth instead of creating it.
