The moment i met my oneitis was the moment i was already doomed

[TheVoidInside]

She was gonna win no matter what happened:

-if i was good looking in person, it would have been an easy lay for her

-if i wasnt good looking it would have been a +1 for her simp collection with the added bonus of being obsessed over

And she knew very well i was non NT and inexperienced. But she is so shallow that she was willing to meet me anyway, simply because she was gonna win regardless of my looks level; there was absolutely 0 consideration for my feelings.

Whats even worse, is that i put a lot of effort for this woman; a woman that i shouldnt even have met. I played it VERY smart with her:

- it was a smart move on my part that i was gymcelling at the time because she likes some muscle and a big frame

-It was a smart move that i told her im into running because she is into athletic niggas despite having never set a foot in the gym (probably assumes that running=better stamina in sex).

And it was a very smart move to capitalize on the fact that summer was coming and talk about vacation with her because she likes travelling and having sex in different places. I also tried to take advantage of the fact that there is a very small 5% non NT part of her to build some connection. @Primalsplit im a lot smarter and better with women than you think but it is completely unsalvageable if you dont pass the looks threshold; abused puppy eyes werent gonna cut it and she HATES ooffie doofies and jesters from what i saw.

Meanwhile my old oneitis was NOT intending to have sex with me on the first date nor did she have any gain from meeting me anyway. She just went out with me to get to actually get to know me (wasnt fan of texting) and spend some time with me. She even paid for it the first time we met. It was a much healthier situation with her and at least she had some consideration for my feelings. @deadstock

And i did NOTHING for her lol. I legit put 0 effort with her and only got angry because she wasnt making it easy for me. My apprehnesive at the time was "Fuck this non NT fat bitch, alt girls are gonna be easier and more understanding", how little did i know. Not to mention she was actually trying to PROTECT me from women like my oneitis by advising me to quit on that bohemian shit i fantasized about because it wasnt gonna happen no matter what i did. @Darkeningstar

She wasnt a saint or anyhting. But because we were the same age and lived through certain situations (like the early 2000s pokemania lol) she could see herself in my shoes. She was also legit the best looking girl born in 1995 (or like top 90%, the competition was very low lol) and she was very aware of that fact. And still, she wasnt super shallow and kinda cared about having stuff in common with the other person. @TechnoBoss

 

[TechnoBoss]

Wait are you @InnerVoid or whatever your name was?

 

[Bruce Wayne78]

Wait are you @InnerVoid or whatever your name was?

He is innervoid aka appartition

 

[itzyaboyJJ]

 

[TheVoidInside]

Wait are you @InnerVoid or whatever your name was?

yep, same person, even worse mental state

 

[TechnoBoss]

She was gonna win no matter what happened:

-if i was good looking in person, it would have been an easy lay for her

-if i wasnt good looking it would have been a +1 for her simp collection with the added bonus of being obsessed over

And she knew very well i was non NT and inexperienced. But she is so shallow that she was willing to meet me anyway, simply because she was gonna win regardless of my looks level; there was absolutely 0 consideration for my feelings.

Whats even worse, is that i put a lot of effort for this woman; a woman that i shouldnt even have met. I played it VERY smart with her:

- it was a smart move on my part that i was gymcelling at the time because she likes some muscle and a big frame

-It was a smart move that i told her im into running because she is into athletic niggas despite having never set a foot in the gym (probably assumes that running=better stamina in sex).

And it was a very smart move to capitalize on the fact that summer was coming and talk about vacation with her because she likes travelling and having sex in different places. I also tried to take advantage of the fact that there is a very small 5% non NT part of her to build some connection. @Primalsplit im a lot smarter and better with women than you think but it is completely unsalvageable if you dont pass the looks threshold; abused puppy eyes werent gonna cut it and she HATES ooffie doofies and jesters from what i saw.

Meanwhile my old oneitis was NOT intending to have sex with me on the first date nor did she have any gain from meeting me anyway. She just went out with me to get to actually get to know me (wasnt fan of texting) and spend some time with me. She even paid for it the first time we met. It was a much healthier situation with her and at least she had some consideration for my feelings. @deadstock

And i did NOTHING for her lol. I legit put 0 effort with her and only got angry because she wasnt making it easy for me. My apprehnesive at the time was "Fuck this non NT fat bitch, alt girls are gonna be easier and more understanding", how little did i know. Not to mention she was actually trying to PROTECT me from women like my oneitis by advising me to quit on that bohemian shit i fantasized about because it wasnt gonna happen no matter what i did. @Darkeningstar

She wasnt a saint or anyhting. But because we were the same age and lived through certain situations (like the early 2000s pokemania lol) she could see herself in my shoes. She was also legit the best looking girl born in 1995 (or like top 90%, the competition was very low lol) and she was very aware of that fact. And still, she wasnt super shallow and kinda cared about having stuff in common with the other person. @TechnoBoss

^ thread soundtrack.

yep, same person, even worse mental state

I’m glad to see you’re back. I remember we had a few nice discussions. You never got over your oneitis? Haven’t you talked to girls since then? You’re a good looking guy.

 

[TheVoidInside]

^ thread soundtrack.

reminds me of matrix

. You never got over your oneitis? Haven’t you talked to girls since then? You’re a good looking guy.

its impossible to meet girls. death is the only thing left at this point

 

[TechnoBoss]

reminds me of matrix


its impossible to meet girls. death is the only thing left at this point

You’re really smart and you’re HTN you can meet girls. Try to forget about your past. You can move on I know you can.

 

[TheVoidInside]

You’re really smart and you’re HTN you can meet girls. Try to forget about your past. You can move on I know you can.

There is no worse feeling than being miserable and knowing that its a direct consequence of your actions.

I was in similar spot back in 2019 but in 2020, i met a person who tried to give me a reality check. This time there aint gonna be such luxury sadly. Im too old and 90% of the women are just worse versions of my oneitis, i legit dont want to see a woman again because it just reminds me of her. I was gonna go out with a girl and i just didnt do it because she was just my oneitis but uglier and dumber.

And i made an effort to find someone better than her tbh. Its hopeles and its even sadder when knowing there was someone better who tried to protect you from the situtation you are in today. She knew i never stood a chance, she knew it was better for me to just focus on working and forget about some things. Ignorance is bliss.

Imagie busting your ass off just to end up knowing you never had a chance with a girl and that she is getting ravaged by some 6'1 ethic bad boi that mogs you in every department.

 

[zerotohero]

Are you still obsessed with that Greek slut? LOL.

 

[JeanneDArcAlter]

Greek chadlite obsessed with some ltb pajeeta passing Greek

 

[TechnoBoss]

There is no worse feeling than being miserable and knowing that its a direct consequence of your actions.

I was in similar spot back in 2019 but in 2020, i met a person who tried to give me a reality check. This time there aint gonna be such luxury sadly. Im too old and 90% of the women are just worse versions of my oneitis, i legit dont want to see a woman again because it just reminds me of her. I was gonna go out with a girl and i just didnt do it because she was just my oneitis but uglier and dumber.

And i made an effort to find someone better than her tbh. Its hopeles and its even sadder when knowing there was someone better who tried to protect you from the situtation you are in today. She knew i never stood a chance, she knew it was better for me to just focus on working and forget about some things. Ignorance is bliss.

Imagie busting your ass off just to end up knowing you never had a chance with a girl and that she is getting ravaged by some 6'1 ethic bad boi that mogs you in every department.

I know this feeling all too well. Damn what you’re writing is hurting me because I relate to every single word.

I don’t want to move on because I feel I blew my chances with the one girl out of 3 billion who knew me so well. My oneitis was perfect. No man or person should feel this feeling.

I’ve been an alcoholic for 3 years since her.

 

[TheVoidInside]

Are you still obsessed with that Greek slut? LOL.

i upvoted her pictures with chad....

 

[TheVoidInside]

Greek chadlite obsessed with some ltb pajeeta passing Greek

she is actually stacy and her boyfriends mog me to self harm

 

[Darkeningstar]

When you realise that the pizza has burnt, it's already too late

 

[TheVoidInside]

I know this feeling all too well. Damn what you’re writing is hurting me because I relate to every single word.

in your case its different because you actually had someting going with her-i didnt. but she could tell where i was going and tried to stop me. it was rly hard to understand it at the time.

I don’t want to move on because I feel I blew my chances with the one girl out of 3 billion who knew me so well. My oneitis was perfect. No man or person should feel this feeling.

as i said, your case was different. i wont tell you that my old oneitis was perfect or anything but she had some consideration for my well being. it was porbbaly not gonna work out with her but i certaintly did not put any effort either. instead i kept clinging onto some unrealistic disney shit that not only drove her away but also did a lot more damage in the long run.

I’ve been an alcoholic for 3 years since her.

i know. i started drinking after meeting her too. but then i met my other oneitis who is very openly into wine and cut it off. coping wont change anything sadly. i was scared of my old oneitis, i though she was "mean" but it rly was for my own good. tough love ig.

 

[TheVoidInside]

When you realise that the pizza has burnt, it's already too late

its so ironic how the bitchy and rude girl actuall cares about your feelings to a degree while the "nice" easy going one sees you as a number

 

[Primalsplit]

Ok

 

[TheVoidInside]

Ok

you cant make a girl be attracted to you because her hormones decide.