InanimatePragmatist
There is nothing for your genetics.
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To be honest, if there was one single wish I can ever have. That is to go back in time with my current mind and become a five year old once more. To relive everything as I once had, to undo and do what I wanted to always to do. To not repeat my same mistakes, to not be huanted by rues my whole life. It is not even over big things, just small things that annoy me. I say this knowing that my future is just another awaiting hell. Well at least an unfeeling and cold hell where I was put into falsely.
If ever in the future I can find a way to go back, whatever means even if it means ripping a whole through time and space, I will. This is my only and one cope. To return to a time of a past where I would feel just the same as I would now, later and in the past. I live in all three it seems. Damn humanity, damn fate and damn time for putting me in a prison where I did not commit no crime against man beyond being born.
I cannot imagine how much more greater things I could have done younger with this mind. Yet if I did not it would give me time to mature with my psyche and awarenesss of life. I already feared the concept of existential meaning of time at 8 years of age and mastered apathy of it at 11 yet I began to hate at 14. I guess isolation was the final nail in the coffin. An early nail in the coffin. I reside as a shadow to mankind and all that happens. Maybe one day I will become an elite, I hope so but even if all the wealth I have, none of it changes a damn thing in existence for me.
My greatest and ultimate regret and woe was ever, ever ever showing remorse or understanding to anyone. Mankind, left brained, right brained, autisitic, nt, sane or insane. All the same pests. Selfish ants who beg to differ to your control of your own life due to their own fattened ego and pride. That is why I always will hate mankind and all life within. Not out of envy, jealousy even. Most people complain about a horrid horrid painful and lonely life yet they know nothing of being a true one of a kind at birth. Rot in hell, all of them. I hate mankind, I hate every last one of them. Woman, man or child. Parasite or future parasite. I seek penance not for my grievence against them but the time I lost to them.
Anyways what do you wish for?
If ever in the future I can find a way to go back, whatever means even if it means ripping a whole through time and space, I will. This is my only and one cope. To return to a time of a past where I would feel just the same as I would now, later and in the past. I live in all three it seems. Damn humanity, damn fate and damn time for putting me in a prison where I did not commit no crime against man beyond being born.
I cannot imagine how much more greater things I could have done younger with this mind. Yet if I did not it would give me time to mature with my psyche and awarenesss of life. I already feared the concept of existential meaning of time at 8 years of age and mastered apathy of it at 11 yet I began to hate at 14. I guess isolation was the final nail in the coffin. An early nail in the coffin. I reside as a shadow to mankind and all that happens. Maybe one day I will become an elite, I hope so but even if all the wealth I have, none of it changes a damn thing in existence for me.
My greatest and ultimate regret and woe was ever, ever ever showing remorse or understanding to anyone. Mankind, left brained, right brained, autisitic, nt, sane or insane. All the same pests. Selfish ants who beg to differ to your control of your own life due to their own fattened ego and pride. That is why I always will hate mankind and all life within. Not out of envy, jealousy even. Most people complain about a horrid horrid painful and lonely life yet they know nothing of being a true one of a kind at birth. Rot in hell, all of them. I hate mankind, I hate every last one of them. Woman, man or child. Parasite or future parasite. I seek penance not for my grievence against them but the time I lost to them.
Anyways what do you wish for?
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