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Lebgfinal
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I became convinced that nothing could be done about my situation, people told me to end my life. I was a kid when i joined this blackpill shit, i wanted to have a better life and feel better. But it destroyed everything i had, motivation, will to live. I couldnt look at myself anymore, i couldnt even believe i was human. I stopped having basic hygiene and take care of myself because everyone told me nothing could fix me. That i would be alone all my life. I still kind of believe it. But fuck man that demotivation made me impossible to make friends, talking to people made me insecure that they could look at me. I isolated myself because i thought nothing could be done. I failed school because i felt like my case was so hopeless, no education could fix my life.
My parents then see that im disfunctional, that i cant live like a normal being and it is true. A big part of this if self inflicted, but when you are so depressed you dont feel rationally and you act retarded.
I regret my past, i regret lot of things ive done but even then the future looks dim. I have nothing going on for me. Sometimes I feel better about myself but then i remind myself im ugly and will never get a relationship. All of this mentally drains you, even if i dont want to end my life. I want my life to be better, i want to be normal and feel happy. But everything feels like its impossible.
My parents then see that im disfunctional, that i cant live like a normal being and it is true. A big part of this if self inflicted, but when you are so depressed you dont feel rationally and you act retarded.
I regret my past, i regret lot of things ive done but even then the future looks dim. I have nothing going on for me. Sometimes I feel better about myself but then i remind myself im ugly and will never get a relationship. All of this mentally drains you, even if i dont want to end my life. I want my life to be better, i want to be normal and feel happy. But everything feels like its impossible.
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