CopeAndRope
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I used to spend between 4-8 hours per day on Facebook. Then by a miracle of God, I was able to get rid of it.
Having fixed the symptom and not the illness, my addiction transitioned to youtube where I watched countless of hours of vlogs of people I never met in my life.
I wasn't aware of the reason I was watching all these random guys and girls living their days and enjoying their lives.
Only later I discovered the reason was lack of friends. It was buried so deep inside me this pain that I wasn't even aware of it.
Then I discovered this site, I registered, started posting, people started reacting to me and slowly slowly, browsing here became my new addiction.
I completely stopped watching youtube. (hurray!)
The symptom just changed, again. The cause of this "paralysis" is still there. I can't do nothing productive, just try to recover what I never had.
And I can't even go out and make new friends 'cause I don't trust anyone anymore. I have became a fucking paranoid full of resentment.
Oh, how much I wish in this moment I was between friends laughing and talking about our interests, but I'm in the dark of my room in the night while I can't fall asleep.
Having fixed the symptom and not the illness, my addiction transitioned to youtube where I watched countless of hours of vlogs of people I never met in my life.
I wasn't aware of the reason I was watching all these random guys and girls living their days and enjoying their lives.
Only later I discovered the reason was lack of friends. It was buried so deep inside me this pain that I wasn't even aware of it.
Then I discovered this site, I registered, started posting, people started reacting to me and slowly slowly, browsing here became my new addiction.
I completely stopped watching youtube. (hurray!)
The symptom just changed, again. The cause of this "paralysis" is still there. I can't do nothing productive, just try to recover what I never had.
And I can't even go out and make new friends 'cause I don't trust anyone anymore. I have became a fucking paranoid full of resentment.
Oh, how much I wish in this moment I was between friends laughing and talking about our interests, but I'm in the dark of my room in the night while I can't fall asleep.