ajshabs
life starts at 6’7 250lbs
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i look back now and realise how deep in the sauce i was — like fully redpilled, borderline schizopilled, thinking i had everything figured out at 15 lmao.
i had this delusion that attention from girls was a distraction, that i had to “grind” and “focus on money” before i was even legally allowed to open a bank account. was doing useless side hustles and reading bullshit mindset posts instead of actually living life.
i genuinely believed being antisocial made me “high value”, i believed i was above everyone else. i had this weird obsession with thinking life has to be constant suffering to mean anything.
like i was geniuenly a masochist at the time.
what’s even worse is there were chances. there was this one high mtb i knew and she was kind of obsessed over me and once in maths she literally said to my friends that she would let me “do anything to her”
that was literally my one chance of not being a sad incel cuck for the rest of my life and i blew it
i believe she was obsessed over me aswell because she had an absent father that was a ex drug dealer so i think she liked me due to my lack of emotion or something idk
i had this delusion that attention from girls was a distraction, that i had to “grind” and “focus on money” before i was even legally allowed to open a bank account. was doing useless side hustles and reading bullshit mindset posts instead of actually living life.
i genuinely believed being antisocial made me “high value”, i believed i was above everyone else. i had this weird obsession with thinking life has to be constant suffering to mean anything.
like i was geniuenly a masochist at the time.
what’s even worse is there were chances. there was this one high mtb i knew and she was kind of obsessed over me and once in maths she literally said to my friends that she would let me “do anything to her”
that was literally my one chance of not being a sad incel cuck for the rest of my life and i blew it
i believe she was obsessed over me aswell because she had an absent father that was a ex drug dealer so i think she liked me due to my lack of emotion or something idk
