The tale of a sensitive young man

[le_paria_social]

I'm 22 and I have no luck in terms of socializing, whether it be with friends or potential love interests.

Never had much interest in girls because I like to keep to myself, but not long ago I started talking to one online.

She was fast in saying that she loved me, and I, like a fucking dumbass, believed her ( ) and started fantasizing about a future together, even tho we had only been talking for about two weeks.

I didn't have any goals in my own life, I just lived, but talking to her made me feel like it would all be worth it, that we would meet and that all I had ever dreamt of would be true, that there was a hope.
I had been told by a therapist that I had been showing signs of depression, but this girl really made me feel like I had a purpose.
I didn't even care about looking at any other girls, they didn't compete.

Obviously, in the 3rd week of talking, she started being dry.
She confessed to me that she had depression, that she had never been treated so well by a guy before and that she needed time to trust me.
I, like a dummy, stood by her side and tried to let her know I'd support her and wait as long as she needed me to.

Two months later, she claimed that she didn't know if she actually had any feelings for me anymore, that she just needed to distract herself from her loneliness and that she wouldn't talk to anyone else but wouldn't talk to me either.
I keep trying to move on but it all felt so real, I can't stop thinking about her.

We never called, I never saw her trinkets, her enjoying her hobbies, how she looks like when she cries, what made her scared in life.

I've been so sad I don't even watch porn anymore
(I had been trying to quit because of her)
but whenever I do, I can only think of her, like always, even when I finish .
Porn saddens me even more because I always imagine sex is what she'll be having with another guy someday.
A guy who isn't me, a guy who won't appreciate her like I do.

I hate her, but god I still like her so much, and I want her to be happy, so so happy.
I just can't believe the possibility of us never meeting exists.


I think I might spiritually be a cuck but for now I won't quit. I want to try winning her back.
She still talks to me (aka replies to my messages) .
I know I'm being gullible again ( ) but I want to try and make her choose me over any other guy.
I even wrote her poems , I want her so intensely.
A real girl, a cute one, talked to me nicely some days ago, and I payed no mind because online girl is the only one I want.
The rest is scum.

whywhywhywhywhy.

I am stupid, gullible, and I am being raped by the world


aw man

 

[Surrender]

 

[nocajebudala]

not a proton

 

[trueteentriad]

sounds like canon event

 

[le_paria_social]

people who reply with ts should be used on impalement sticks

 

[Finn]

You’re not stupid, you’re just starved for connection and latched onto the first person who felt like “hope” after a long dry spell. What you’re feeling is more like limerence + depression than love: you built a fantasy around a girl you never actually met, and your brain is now withdrawing from the story it created.

 

[le_paria_social]

You’re not stupid, you’re just starved for connection and latched onto the first person who felt like “hope” after a long dry spell. What you’re feeling is more like limerence + depression than love: you built a fantasy around a girl you never actually met, and your brain is now withdrawing from the story it created.

For sure. Even though I wrote all this I know the truth, and that I didn't love her (not yet atleast) I just liked her company after so many loneliness.

I recognize I didn't truly know much about her, but I was willing to know and dedicate a big portion of my time to her.
I enjoyed her company specifically, I talk to other girls online and none of them feel particularly special or interesting.

What truly hurts me is not the fact that she doesn't want me I guess, but moreso that I can never have anything I truly want when I want it, not even meeting someone and being properly rejected so I get the chance to move on instead of latching onto a "what could have been".
I don't live life: I don't have friends, I don't lose lovers I don't have lovers, I don't lose lovers. I just look into potential situations all the time

 

[Finn]

You’re not really grieving a relationship, you’re grieving lost potential and a life you haven’t started yet. That’s why the “what could have been” hurts more than the fact she doesn’t choose you.

 

[Pony]

D

N

R

 

[le_paria_social]

You’re not really grieving a relationship, you’re grieving lost potential and a life you haven’t started yet. That’s why the “what could have been” hurts more than the fact she doesn’t choose you.

All you've said are really obvious things I already knew, but you have a great way of rectifying so they actually manage to touch me thank you

 

[lafort2000]

still am
I just don't let people talk to me anymore

 

[MixedBoyo12]

In my thread about why you need to have experiences early, I mentioned this point and what Rehab said about “lust induced cringe maxxed syndrome” most guys prolly go thru it, but brutal, look at you, writing poems like you’re Shakespeare To a foid who’s been gettin her back blown out by Tyrone this entire time. You’ll learn tho, they’re all the same

 

[xzylecrey]

#NSPM > #YSM

 

[AlbinoMaxxer]

Sounds like an ads case to me

 

[Gus17]

I'm 22 and I have no luck in terms of socializing, whether it be with friends or potential love interests.

Never had much interest in girls because I like to keep to myself, but not long ago I started talking to one online.

She was fast in saying that she loved me, and I, like a fucking dumbass, believed her ( ) and started fantasizing about a future together, even tho we had only been talking for about two weeks.

I didn't have any goals in my own life, I just lived, but talking to her made me feel like it would all be worth it, that we would meet and that all I had ever dreamt of would be true, that there was a hope.
I had been told by a therapist that I had been showing signs of depression, but this girl really made me feel like I had a purpose.
I didn't even care about looking at any other girls, they didn't compete.

Obviously, in the 3rd week of talking, she started being dry.
She confessed to me that she had depression, that she had never been treated so well by a guy before and that she needed time to trust me.
I, like a dummy, stood by her side and tried to let her know I'd support her and wait as long as she needed me to.

Two months later, she claimed that she didn't know if she actually had any feelings for me anymore, that she just needed to distract herself from her loneliness and that she wouldn't talk to anyone else but wouldn't talk to me either.
I keep trying to move on but it all felt so real, I can't stop thinking about her.

We never called, I never saw her trinkets, her enjoying her hobbies, how she looks like when she cries, what made her scared in life.

I've been so sad I don't even watch porn anymore
(I had been trying to quit because of her)
but whenever I do, I can only think of her, like always, even when I finish .
Porn saddens me even more because I always imagine sex is what she'll be having with another guy someday.
A guy who isn't me, a guy who won't appreciate her like I do.

I hate her, but god I still like her so much, and I want her to be happy, so so happy.
I just can't believe the possibility of us never meeting exists.


I think I might spiritually be a cuck but for now I won't quit. I want to try winning her back.
She still talks to me (aka replies to my messages) .
I know I'm being gullible again ( ) but I want to try and make her choose me over any other guy.
I even wrote her poems , I want her so intensely.
A real girl, a cute one, talked to me nicely some days ago, and I payed no mind because online girl is the only one I want.
The rest is scum.

whywhywhywhywhy.

I am stupid, gullible, and I am being raped by the world


aw man

How are you at 22 only realizing that all women are whores? This is like Highschool shit. Just message bp'd whores on tiktok into bdsm and you'll get over it lol.

 

[le_paria_social]

In my thread about why you need to have experiences early, I mentioned this point and what Rehab said about “lust induced cringe maxxed syndrome” most guys prolly go thru it, but brutal, look at you, writing poems like you’re Shakespeare To a foid who’s been gettin her back blown out by Tyrone this entire time. You’ll learn tho, they’re all the same

Lol I've had girls interested in me before I just didnt engage because I am ND and too lazy to do anything about it
(plus they werent too attractive) .
This isn't really a lack of experience imo my problem is that I am too impulsive and emotionally attached due to my loneliness but I am 100% aware of the fact that this is all a cuck situation.

Either ways I dont think shes getting her back blown no shes in a wheelchair

 

[LTNUser]

Lol I've had girls interested in me before I just didnt engage because I am ND and too lazy to do anything about it
(plus they werent too attractive) .
This isn't really a lack of experience imo my problem is that I am too impulsive and emotionally attached due to my loneliness but I am 100% aware of the fact that this is all a cuck situation.

Either ways I dont think shes getting her back blown no shes in a wheelchair

You should not miss such opportunities
Later you would regret not doing anything about it when girls messaged you

 

[le_paria_social]

How are you at 22 only realizing that all women are whores? This is like Highschool shit. Just message bp'd whores on tiktok into bdsm and you'll get over it lol.

Nigger r u stupid dont you think thats exactly what I was trying to do???
She was in a wheelchair and was also ND ffs

I thought shed be incapable of having someone else choose her even if she wanted to

 

[Gus17]

Nigger r u stupid dont you think thats exactly what I was trying to do???
She was in a wheelchair and was also ND ffs

All women are whores including the disabled and mentally impaired. You need to get this through your skull. Even the best men get cheated on. Look at Tom Brady, star athlete, rich, extremely famous. He still got cheated on by his whore wife. Women are whores never treat them any better then that.

I thought shed be incapable of having someone else choose her even if she wanted to

Men are desperate. Even the fattest girl still gets way more matches than a chadlite. If you have a girl a guy will try and take her from you. Eventually she’ll cheat. There is no saving yourself from this except rejecting the notion of romantic love itself. Find family, freinds, and community and treat women like the whores they are.

 

[le_paria_social]

All women are whores including the disabled and mentally impaired. You need to get this through your skull. Even the best men get cheated on. Look at Tom Brady, star athlete, rich, extremely famous. He still got cheated on by his whore wife. Women are whores never treat them any better then that.

Men are desperate. Even the fattest girl still gets way more matches than a chadlite. If you have a girl a guy will try and take her from you. Eventually she’ll cheat. There is no saving yourself from this except rejecting the notion of romantic love itself. Find family, freinds, and community and treat women like the whores they are.

Yes many women are whores but if you say "all" you'll just sound like the male version of those bitches with dyed hair and septum piercings on tiktok who say "all men are evil and have tendencies towards rape" like wut
If you are going to make this claim atleast give more solid evidence than "uhhh this one celebrity looks good and got cheated on" .
Denying the existance of solid romantic love is insane, total generalisations are insane.
Women can be loyal for sure, but they need to want to do so. And many times it's for shallow reasons like looks.

The world is not black and white, there is good and bad. This is not a cope its the truth.

Tho in my case yeah, she could be whoring around but atleast the guy wont be too attractive I hope

 

[kisslessvirgin]

hope things get better boyo but they probably wont

 

[iblamefranklin]

I'm 22 and I have no luck in terms of socializing, whether it be with friends or potential love interests.

Never had much interest in girls because I like to keep to myself, but not long ago I started talking to one online.

She was fast in saying that she loved me, and I, like a fucking dumbass, believed her ( ) and started fantasizing about a future together, even tho we had only been talking for about two weeks.

I didn't have any goals in my own life, I just lived, but talking to her made me feel like it would all be worth it, that we would meet and that all I had ever dreamt of would be true, that there was a hope.
I had been told by a therapist that I had been showing signs of depression, but this girl really made me feel like I had a purpose.
I didn't even care about looking at any other girls, they didn't compete.

Obviously, in the 3rd week of talking, she started being dry.
She confessed to me that she had depression, that she had never been treated so well by a guy before and that she needed time to trust me.
I, like a dummy, stood by her side and tried to let her know I'd support her and wait as long as she needed me to.

Two months later, she claimed that she didn't know if she actually had any feelings for me anymore, that she just needed to distract herself from her loneliness and that she wouldn't talk to anyone else but wouldn't talk to me either.
I keep trying to move on but it all felt so real, I can't stop thinking about her.

We never called, I never saw her trinkets, her enjoying her hobbies, how she looks like when she cries, what made her scared in life.

I've been so sad I don't even watch porn anymore
(I had been trying to quit because of her)
but whenever I do, I can only think of her, like always, even when I finish .
Porn saddens me even more because I always imagine sex is what she'll be having with another guy someday.
A guy who isn't me, a guy who won't appreciate her like I do.

I hate her, but god I still like her so much, and I want her to be happy, so so happy.
I just can't believe the possibility of us never meeting exists.


I think I might spiritually be a cuck but for now I won't quit. I want to try winning her back.
She still talks to me (aka replies to my messages) .
I know I'm being gullible again ( ) but I want to try and make her choose me over any other guy.
I even wrote her poems , I want her so intensely.
A real girl, a cute one, talked to me nicely some days ago, and I payed no mind because online girl is the only one I want.
The rest is scum.

whywhywhywhywhy.

I am stupid, gullible, and I am being raped by the world


aw man

 

[sadcel]

I'm 22 and I have no luck in terms of socializing, whether it be with friends or potential love interests.

Never had much interest in girls because I like to keep to myself, but not long ago I started talking to one online.

She was fast in saying that she loved me, and I, like a fucking dumbass, believed her ( ) and started fantasizing about a future together, even tho we had only been talking for about two weeks.

I didn't have any goals in my own life, I just lived, but talking to her made me feel like it would all be worth it, that we would meet and that all I had ever dreamt of would be true, that there was a hope.
I had been told by a therapist that I had been showing signs of depression, but this girl really made me feel like I had a purpose.
I didn't even care about looking at any other girls, they didn't compete.

Obviously, in the 3rd week of talking, she started being dry.
She confessed to me that she had depression, that she had never been treated so well by a guy before and that she needed time to trust me.
I, like a dummy, stood by her side and tried to let her know I'd support her and wait as long as she needed me to.

Two months later, she claimed that she didn't know if she actually had any feelings for me anymore, that she just needed to distract herself from her loneliness and that she wouldn't talk to anyone else but wouldn't talk to me either.
I keep trying to move on but it all felt so real, I can't stop thinking about her.

We never called, I never saw her trinkets, her enjoying her hobbies, how she looks like when she cries, what made her scared in life.

I've been so sad I don't even watch porn anymore
(I had been trying to quit because of her)
but whenever I do, I can only think of her, like always, even when I finish .
Porn saddens me even more because I always imagine sex is what she'll be having with another guy someday.
A guy who isn't me, a guy who won't appreciate her like I do.

I hate her, but god I still like her so much, and I want her to be happy, so so happy.
I just can't believe the possibility of us never meeting exists.


I think I might spiritually be a cuck but for now I won't quit. I want to try winning her back.
She still talks to me (aka replies to my messages) .
I know I'm being gullible again ( ) but I want to try and make her choose me over any other guy.
I even wrote her poems , I want her so intensely.
A real girl, a cute one, talked to me nicely some days ago, and I payed no mind because online girl is the only one I want.
The rest is scum.

whywhywhywhywhy.

I am stupid, gullible, and I am being raped by the world


aw man

Are you French OP?