The true purpose of looksmaxxing (Self Acceptance)

[sub5lifter]

(My own experience) After ascending, I realize that looksmaxxing has never really been about the girls. Hardly any of those small, temporary things but rather it seems to be self acceptance. Despite my ascension and now being able to pull many girls that wouldn't have ever dared glance at the previous me, I still feel empty inside. Although I have ascended, my insecurities have 50x itself. Before it was only my height and weight that bothered me but now I can confidently list 103 things about myself that I hate. It doesn't make sense, I'm better looking now, I'm getting the girls I wanted but why has my mental only gotten worth? Why has my insecurities increased? And now I realize it. It is because the thing I have truly been searching for, self acceptance, is not and will never be in my grasp. It is the harsh reality for people like me who have grown up and been taught to hate and be insecure about yourself. It's unfair how much I have to overfixate on every small detail just to 'feel' secure while I observe people who look so happy even when I can recognize their flaws almost like they accept that they are 'less than'. Some people leave their homes looking like they just rolled out of bed yet they look so happy but me on the other hand I have to do so many things to fix everything before I leave my home. I lowk ran out of emotional steam so Imma end here but I wanna hear what yall think