Apparition
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you know, for like a year or so, i was so hooked to my oneitis, its insane. i knew she didnt like me, i didnt see her but i knew she was close, just a few blocks away and that was enough for me.
and i believed that she liked my personality and my looks just didnt cut it and that she was a nice girl. i also knew her apprehensive and all this stuff was helping me cope so i felt less alone.
but eventually the cope ended and now that she is gone, everything feels empty. it was gonna happen eventually but i just hoped i wouldnt know about it.
nowdays, its like im in a hyperbolic time chamber, there is nothing out there. it takes lots of energy to get through the day too. it seemed like a good idea at the time to clinge on her but i never realized how much damage it actually did.
and i believed that she liked my personality and my looks just didnt cut it and that she was a nice girl. i also knew her apprehensive and all this stuff was helping me cope so i felt less alone.
but eventually the cope ended and now that she is gone, everything feels empty. it was gonna happen eventually but i just hoped i wouldnt know about it.
nowdays, its like im in a hyperbolic time chamber, there is nothing out there. it takes lots of energy to get through the day too. it seemed like a good idea at the time to clinge on her but i never realized how much damage it actually did.
