Always Stay You
Ascension or my tombstone will read, "John Doe"
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Like, no big moments. No parties or meaningful relationships. No memorable, long summers for me to cherish when I'm old. Just loneliness and loss.
I thought everyone was entitled to some moments when they're young, I put myself out they're trying to experience them. I went outside, worked jobs, tried to be friendly and make friends. I made sure I was groomed and on trend. But as the years passed, nothing changed apart from my appearance.
I got zero, and ultimately my adolescence was marked by social rejection and being forced to spend what were supposed to be "the best years of my life" inside my bedroom. What else was I supposed to do after receiving no interest from anybody... Just loiter in the streets waiting something to happen? I was forced inside my bedroom and onto my PC.
It fizzled out with no big climax. Now I'm a grown man and do adult things. All my peers (especially all the women) had that youth experience and now move onto the next natural level of their lives. But I'm stunted. It's just funny how there was absolutely nothing. Not one meaningful summer night. Only social isolation, loss and failure.
I thought everyone was entitled to some moments when they're young, I put myself out they're trying to experience them. I went outside, worked jobs, tried to be friendly and make friends. I made sure I was groomed and on trend. But as the years passed, nothing changed apart from my appearance.
I got zero, and ultimately my adolescence was marked by social rejection and being forced to spend what were supposed to be "the best years of my life" inside my bedroom. What else was I supposed to do after receiving no interest from anybody... Just loiter in the streets waiting something to happen? I was forced inside my bedroom and onto my PC.
It fizzled out with no big climax. Now I'm a grown man and do adult things. All my peers (especially all the women) had that youth experience and now move onto the next natural level of their lives. But I'm stunted. It's just funny how there was absolutely nothing. Not one meaningful summer night. Only social isolation, loss and failure.