
Wombles
My discord is: wombles.org
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Firstly zero eye contact no homo but I do look at men out in public more then women. I analyse there facial features there skin tone and male pattern baldness and height. I estimate there psl/smv rating and see how much they mog me by. Sometimes when i know nobody is looking at me I look at women although I'm not joking I slightly tear up, I realise no woman will ever love me there wide hips, feminine laugh, soft skin and unconditional love is for chad or the rare exception of man who isn't that.
What hurts the most is seeing couples that aren't looksmatched where the guy is ugly short or ethnic and they somehow get a good looking girl who looks like they love them. Yes I know, just be first just be ethnic and just be nt exist but that further saddens me as I know if I wasn't so mentally ill maybe I'd have a higher chance of getting a girl too. Although that's copuim.
Also aside from not looking at women I also never thank them when they open the door for me. Sometimes I look at women briefly and when our eyes meet I look away at my laptop or the floor. Even with my teachers I never used to look at them or my female classmates when they were talking. I, like a gormless retard just stare down. Just today a woman came up to me, as well as everyone else in this public building I was at, and asked if I saw the recent changes in the added cafeteria to the place and was going to give me a pamphlet. I just stared at her slightly chubby blonde blue eyed face and didn't respond. She said ok quietly and moved along. She forgot about me a minute later meanwhile my interaction with her and every other woman in my life has been etched to my brain.
I do think people see my bitterness it's hard to hide, but I act accordingly and try to be as normal as I can and never do anything to disrupt others. The blackpill has killed me, porn has fucked me like a necrophile would, but I'll try and keep writing my incel book and hope it becomes a famous classic or maybe the lost writings of a broken man.
What hurts the most is seeing couples that aren't looksmatched where the guy is ugly short or ethnic and they somehow get a good looking girl who looks like they love them. Yes I know, just be first just be ethnic and just be nt exist but that further saddens me as I know if I wasn't so mentally ill maybe I'd have a higher chance of getting a girl too. Although that's copuim.
Also aside from not looking at women I also never thank them when they open the door for me. Sometimes I look at women briefly and when our eyes meet I look away at my laptop or the floor. Even with my teachers I never used to look at them or my female classmates when they were talking. I, like a gormless retard just stare down. Just today a woman came up to me, as well as everyone else in this public building I was at, and asked if I saw the recent changes in the added cafeteria to the place and was going to give me a pamphlet. I just stared at her slightly chubby blonde blue eyed face and didn't respond. She said ok quietly and moved along. She forgot about me a minute later meanwhile my interaction with her and every other woman in my life has been etched to my brain.
I do think people see my bitterness it's hard to hide, but I act accordingly and try to be as normal as I can and never do anything to disrupt others. The blackpill has killed me, porn has fucked me like a necrophile would, but I'll try and keep writing my incel book and hope it becomes a famous classic or maybe the lost writings of a broken man.
