davidlaidisme67
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Nothing in this world is simple unless you're goodlooking. At every turn, I've been bullied for being a shit skin african at every turn. In highschool, middle school you name it, people have called me ugly and slurs repeatedly. Even my own father shared the same sentiment, hell im glad he told me the turth about me being a dirty nigger subhuman cause this helped me realize how undesirable I am. I remember in middle school when the ebola song was fairly popular still, kids within my school acted like I was patient zero cause I was west african, I remember girls I liked would run to get hand sanitzer after touching me. They said I was dirty and that africans are smelly. I wanted to be accepted and not ridiculed anymore so I decided the best course of plan was to become a jestermaxxer. I was a caricature for them to laugh at and make fun of. I would go on my knees and pretend to be a gorilla, growlinhg like one too. Everytime girls would giggle, I would believe that they actually liked me but nope I was their dirty nigger clown that they could use for laughs. I remember the chads in middle school would just yell at me to be a monkey again and then they would proceed to record and post it onto their snap stories. Marking me as the monkey boy for the rest of my middle school career. After getting into a good highschool which occured after a special test to get into the school, I had hopes everything would change and that I would finally be accepted but nope I would argue my highschool years were even more humilating. I wasnt really bullied anymore but the way my oneitises would cuck me and just hit me up for attention messed with my psyche more than the jestermaxxxing days could ever hope to achieve. And I thought I learned my fucking lesson but nope once again IM letting my oneitis control my happiness. I finally had the gall to block that bitch but im still sadden at never being loved and just seen as this shit skin nigger for eternity. I fucking despise this existence
