futureashtray
caylee cowan > your oneitis
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I just saw this video and for the first few second when I saw that beautiful French lady who is a cashier is began to smile and admire her face
The music made it even more special but then I snapped out of it quickly
it is a lie. the only reason I felt something was because of her face. I had never seen that woman in my life but seeing her smile and her face in general hypnotized me
It was not “love”, it was attraction. I did not “like” her, I was attracted to her face
this is the case for every girl I see. Unfortunately
I do not feel that so called “love” connection and most likely will never because I believe it is not real
I was only attracted to her. Nothing else.
When I realized that I immediately became somewhat sad and decided to vent here because there might be some who relate to what I am saying
But I do want to have an attractive girl. I want experience the feeling of having a relationship with a female but I do not have the capability to “love” or feel a connection in any way
