Darkeningstar
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I experienced three sides of the same coin.
I am autistic+abused dog+adhd+... , that certainly didn't help. Add manlet (5'8'-5'9', fortunately Southern Europe).
I first experienced the black pill when I was in middle school: I was constantly placed at the bottom of "beauty" rankings. From the third year of high school on, the situation was reversed: ioi, enough compliments (many of them from unknown or unfamiliar males), teachers who treat you better, etc. I lost my virginity at 15 but realized that being "slayer" was not for me and that I was just looking for validation. So I was rejecting girls, but my body count remained and remains 1. Finished high school personal problems+norwood wiped me out, now at 24 I'm back to square one. The problem is that socially I've always been a mess, and I can't afford to be a slave at work like many others. I guess it's over.
Being non-neurotypical is a problem, in the medium to long term, in fact female classmates treated me like I was a MTN because they saw my loser side. Anyway if you are attractive it doesn't matter.
Sexhaver ramblings? Yes, maybe.
I am autistic+abused dog+adhd+... , that certainly didn't help. Add manlet (5'8'-5'9', fortunately Southern Europe).
I first experienced the black pill when I was in middle school: I was constantly placed at the bottom of "beauty" rankings. From the third year of high school on, the situation was reversed: ioi, enough compliments (many of them from unknown or unfamiliar males), teachers who treat you better, etc. I lost my virginity at 15 but realized that being "slayer" was not for me and that I was just looking for validation. So I was rejecting girls, but my body count remained and remains 1. Finished high school personal problems+norwood wiped me out, now at 24 I'm back to square one. The problem is that socially I've always been a mess, and I can't afford to be a slave at work like many others. I guess it's over.
Being non-neurotypical is a problem, in the medium to long term, in fact female classmates treated me like I was a MTN because they saw my loser side. Anyway if you are attractive it doesn't matter.
Sexhaver ramblings? Yes, maybe.
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