today I kinda felt alive

[whotthehell]

I thought it's a manic episode starting cause I started feeling real and present, I got awaken from the state of being a dull zombie, for a few hours I was enjoying high dopaminal state of functioning now I am back to the baseline derealization and anhedonia, I hope I'll breakout from this soon, I want to feel like human and not only experience some glimpses of it from time to time

 

[Gengar]

Mogs me.

 

[Sapieeen]

I feel opioid or amphetamine like for few hours or some then I go into a zombie like state (bump)