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Hello, before I start this thread id like to tell you guys a few things. Its currently 11:11 PM when I am writing this. I am have drunk tonight so my writing might not be that good (and might have some broken grammar) Also if you guys want to read this thinking its some incel being mad about his looks reply with DNR. I have no problem about my looks or women, this is about something else.Lets start.
A bit of background: I am writing this because I am a loser of my own fault. I grew up in a normal family, have friends, have had sex, don't look like a ogre and I am also not 5'6. The only time I was really a loser was middle school when I became a bit anti social and gained weight (100 kg at my heaviest). I lost that weight after middle school pretty fast.
PROBLEM 1: BEING A LOSER, NOT SLEEPING TONIGHT AND GETTING BACK ON TRACK
I hate myself because I can't do what I want to do out of simply being too lazy and having this weird fucked up mind. Not fucked up as in I should be jailed. Fucked up as in my brain is "too logical" and too lazy I guess? I have always been smart. Maybe I was born like this I don't really know. I also always had pretty weird aspirations, as in when I was 13 I was legit worried I won't be rich by the time high school starts (and I was 13 in a time where hustle culture was not really seen that much (at least I didn't see it). I've always wanted money and by that I don't mean get lambo fuck whores kinda money. I want to build a huge castle out of stone and have a huge fucking garden. Small forest size. I also do not care that much about sex(or at least not as much as 99% of this forum and 80% of dudes). I have had sex a few times and have women willing to have sex with me right now who I either rejected or ignored. I also do not care about how others perceive me if its not the people I care about. I also hate my friends.
Why do I hate my friends? No they don't bully me more than friendly teasing which I do back to them. No they don't do hard drugs and push me to do it. I hate them because they are losers. I have around like 23 real life friends (friends as in dudes I am at least kinda close with) I do not consider women my friends as I either fake being their friend to be able to observe how much of a bad person they are( more on this later) or I am close to them cause its good to have someone to hang out with that doesn't blurt out brain rot on a daily basis). Out of those 23 around 6 I would consider real good friends (hang out with them very often). However:
- One is a tall loser (spends his whole day being a incel loser playing incel video games and being lame as fuck)
- One is a ass licker to the tall loser (cause tall loser introduced him to multiple people so he wasnt a friendless fuck anymore)(otherwise he a good guy)
- One is lazy (this guy is cool but he is VERY FUCKING LAZY)
- One is weird (not to me but he is weird to other people, not in a creepy way but he doesn't understand normal social norms and there is a high chance he will get arrested at some point)
- One is a gang member (explains itself)
- One acts like he is a 14 year old edgy kid with a 3 second attention span. Also the kind of guy who when criticized loves to practice ad hominem
How will I change this? Same way I lost weight. Just go all in. I currently have the next goals to finish within the next month:
- Finish writing my book
- Lose 7 kgs I gained and haven't been able to get rid of for more than 3 days
- Get rid of my eating addiction( i legit love eating doesn't matter what, if I wouldn't have like 3 + hours in the gym daily Id probably be very fucking fat)
- Start being more ordered
- Get a short term job
This will help me become the guy I was 4 years ago, when I was improving every day, getting money and being very productive and happy.
- I also want to get a new group of friends. I will only keep the guy who is just weird cause he isn't weird enough for others to notice.
PROBLEM 2: SOCIETY BORES ME
I legit am bored by everyone. Whenever I go out with friends whether its a party, going out drinking , playing pool, whatever fun activity I get bored after a bit of time.
The weird guy is the only person who entertains me cause he is legit down to talk about ANY FUCKING THING.
How do I fix this?Don't suggest hard drugs as I do not have the money for that currently.
PROBLEM 3: I HATE HOW MUCH BAD PEOPLE ARE IN THE WORLD. (and what else I hate)
Everyone is a bad person. Every religion except Christianity is fucking disgusting. The quran's "prophet" married a child, the jewish TALMUD IS THE MOST DISGUSTING BOOK I HAVE EVER LAID EYES UPON, ID RATHER READ INCEST WEB COMICS MADE BY .is MEMBERS THAN WHATEVER BULLSHIT THAT IS.
Women are bad people. Even my mother has very shit temper when talking to customer service etc. My female friends fucking trash talk so many people for no reason its disgusting (i was once driving, had my friend besides me and 2 whores in the back. the whores started trashtalking a guy I know just because he is a little weird as in he watches anime and has a shit haircut , even doe he is a VERY GOOD PERSON).
I see how women treat ugly dudes and it makes me fucking puke just because id never talk to a ugly woman like that unless she is mean to me first.
People are so fucking retarded in traffic. Motherfuckers will scream their lungs off at eachother for minor bullshit.
People are so fucking retarded online I SEE GROWN MEN MAKING VIDEOS HOW THEY ARE ANNOYED AT PEOPLE WHO WAIT FOR THEIR CHILDREN AND BLOCK A TRAFFIC LANE FOR A FEW MINUTES AS IF THAT TRAFFIC LANE BEING BLOCKED IS GONNA MAKE THEIR WIFE CHEAT ON THEM.
People are so retarded in politcs. Motherfuckers who have not spent a day reading about anything geo political related will give their opinion on anything.
People are so fucking corny (self explanatory)
Poeple are so simple minded its like they are monkeys. My father was mad at me cause I like driving in a way that wasnt perfectly sound (as in always keeping the same speed) and when I told him i dont give a fuck about my car milage and shit (ITS A HYBRID 2025 YOTA AINT SHIT HAPPENING TO IT CAUSE OF A 3 KM DIF IN SPEED) he told me how its not "normal" and you have to do things in a "normal" way like the communist monkey he is (i still love my father as he cares for me) (no he did not buy me my car so he cant use that as a argument for me to drive it how he says)
I hate how people blame the gouvernment for everything.
example: my father blames the gouvernment and taxes cause he pays a ton for his loans WHICH HE GOT, WHICH HE PAID LATE AND EVERYTHING IS HIS FAULT but he is acting as if the gouvernment gave him loans out of the blue.
(he still earns twice the average sallary in my country but lives like shit CAUSE MOTHERFUCKER BUYS 7$ butter (200 grams) and 6$ milk (for two liters) while driving a shitbox of a car and smoking 2 packs a day)
I also hate that we put people who prey on children and rapists in jail. THEY SHOULD BE SKINNED ALIVE AND THAN KILLED BY PENETRATION WITH A HOT IRON ROD.
Thank you for coming to my ted talk
A bit of background: I am writing this because I am a loser of my own fault. I grew up in a normal family, have friends, have had sex, don't look like a ogre and I am also not 5'6. The only time I was really a loser was middle school when I became a bit anti social and gained weight (100 kg at my heaviest). I lost that weight after middle school pretty fast.
PROBLEM 1: BEING A LOSER, NOT SLEEPING TONIGHT AND GETTING BACK ON TRACK
I hate myself because I can't do what I want to do out of simply being too lazy and having this weird fucked up mind. Not fucked up as in I should be jailed. Fucked up as in my brain is "too logical" and too lazy I guess? I have always been smart. Maybe I was born like this I don't really know. I also always had pretty weird aspirations, as in when I was 13 I was legit worried I won't be rich by the time high school starts (and I was 13 in a time where hustle culture was not really seen that much (at least I didn't see it). I've always wanted money and by that I don't mean get lambo fuck whores kinda money. I want to build a huge castle out of stone and have a huge fucking garden. Small forest size. I also do not care that much about sex(or at least not as much as 99% of this forum and 80% of dudes). I have had sex a few times and have women willing to have sex with me right now who I either rejected or ignored. I also do not care about how others perceive me if its not the people I care about. I also hate my friends.
Why do I hate my friends? No they don't bully me more than friendly teasing which I do back to them. No they don't do hard drugs and push me to do it. I hate them because they are losers. I have around like 23 real life friends (friends as in dudes I am at least kinda close with) I do not consider women my friends as I either fake being their friend to be able to observe how much of a bad person they are( more on this later) or I am close to them cause its good to have someone to hang out with that doesn't blurt out brain rot on a daily basis). Out of those 23 around 6 I would consider real good friends (hang out with them very often). However:
- One is a tall loser (spends his whole day being a incel loser playing incel video games and being lame as fuck)
- One is a ass licker to the tall loser (cause tall loser introduced him to multiple people so he wasnt a friendless fuck anymore)(otherwise he a good guy)
- One is lazy (this guy is cool but he is VERY FUCKING LAZY)
- One is weird (not to me but he is weird to other people, not in a creepy way but he doesn't understand normal social norms and there is a high chance he will get arrested at some point)
- One is a gang member (explains itself)
- One acts like he is a 14 year old edgy kid with a 3 second attention span. Also the kind of guy who when criticized loves to practice ad hominem
How will I change this? Same way I lost weight. Just go all in. I currently have the next goals to finish within the next month:
- Finish writing my book
- Lose 7 kgs I gained and haven't been able to get rid of for more than 3 days
- Get rid of my eating addiction( i legit love eating doesn't matter what, if I wouldn't have like 3 + hours in the gym daily Id probably be very fucking fat)
- Start being more ordered
- Get a short term job
This will help me become the guy I was 4 years ago, when I was improving every day, getting money and being very productive and happy.
- I also want to get a new group of friends. I will only keep the guy who is just weird cause he isn't weird enough for others to notice.
PROBLEM 2: SOCIETY BORES ME
I legit am bored by everyone. Whenever I go out with friends whether its a party, going out drinking , playing pool, whatever fun activity I get bored after a bit of time.
The weird guy is the only person who entertains me cause he is legit down to talk about ANY FUCKING THING.
How do I fix this?Don't suggest hard drugs as I do not have the money for that currently.
PROBLEM 3: I HATE HOW MUCH BAD PEOPLE ARE IN THE WORLD. (and what else I hate)
Everyone is a bad person. Every religion except Christianity is fucking disgusting. The quran's "prophet" married a child, the jewish TALMUD IS THE MOST DISGUSTING BOOK I HAVE EVER LAID EYES UPON, ID RATHER READ INCEST WEB COMICS MADE BY .is MEMBERS THAN WHATEVER BULLSHIT THAT IS.
Women are bad people. Even my mother has very shit temper when talking to customer service etc. My female friends fucking trash talk so many people for no reason its disgusting (i was once driving, had my friend besides me and 2 whores in the back. the whores started trashtalking a guy I know just because he is a little weird as in he watches anime and has a shit haircut , even doe he is a VERY GOOD PERSON).
I see how women treat ugly dudes and it makes me fucking puke just because id never talk to a ugly woman like that unless she is mean to me first.
People are so fucking retarded in traffic. Motherfuckers will scream their lungs off at eachother for minor bullshit.
People are so fucking retarded online I SEE GROWN MEN MAKING VIDEOS HOW THEY ARE ANNOYED AT PEOPLE WHO WAIT FOR THEIR CHILDREN AND BLOCK A TRAFFIC LANE FOR A FEW MINUTES AS IF THAT TRAFFIC LANE BEING BLOCKED IS GONNA MAKE THEIR WIFE CHEAT ON THEM.
People are so retarded in politcs. Motherfuckers who have not spent a day reading about anything geo political related will give their opinion on anything.
People are so fucking corny (self explanatory)
Poeple are so simple minded its like they are monkeys. My father was mad at me cause I like driving in a way that wasnt perfectly sound (as in always keeping the same speed) and when I told him i dont give a fuck about my car milage and shit (ITS A HYBRID 2025 YOTA AINT SHIT HAPPENING TO IT CAUSE OF A 3 KM DIF IN SPEED) he told me how its not "normal" and you have to do things in a "normal" way like the communist monkey he is (i still love my father as he cares for me) (no he did not buy me my car so he cant use that as a argument for me to drive it how he says)
I hate how people blame the gouvernment for everything.
example: my father blames the gouvernment and taxes cause he pays a ton for his loans WHICH HE GOT, WHICH HE PAID LATE AND EVERYTHING IS HIS FAULT but he is acting as if the gouvernment gave him loans out of the blue.
(he still earns twice the average sallary in my country but lives like shit CAUSE MOTHERFUCKER BUYS 7$ butter (200 grams) and 6$ milk (for two liters) while driving a shitbox of a car and smoking 2 packs a day)
I also hate that we put people who prey on children and rapists in jail. THEY SHOULD BE SKINNED ALIVE AND THAN KILLED BY PENETRATION WITH A HOT IRON ROD.
Thank you for coming to my ted talk
