
bombmyhousejfl
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I quit .org for a bit. I was very suicidal, but I haven’t improved at all since then. I wanted to forget about this whole looks thing, but it’s genuinely impossible. I literally decided to read a book about propositional logic and guess what, there was a fucking syllogism about being 6’5: “All men in area A are 6’5. Marcus is a man. Therefore, Marcus is 6’5.” After reading that, I picked up the knife and seriously wanted to slice my throat. I didn’t have the energy to. I read other stuff too, but WHY do they always have to include “tall” and “handsome” in the description of the story’s hero? Or even when they describe a guy who killed himself. Because literally, if someone kills themselves and they looked good, people go, “Oh, that’s sad, he was good looking too!” WHY DOES THAT MATTER? This shit is literally everywhere, and if you don’t agree, you’re coping like an idiot.… ALL OF THIS IS USELESS. I DIDN’T ASK TO BE HERE, BUT I’M HERE WITHOUT EVEN A NICE DECK OF CARDS. WHY? What did I do wrong in my past life?
And by the way, it’s not just about looks. It’s everything else too. The fact that life is unfair fucking sucks. You might say, “Oh don’t be a pussy, build yourself anyway!” WHY WOULD I? Even if I successfully do something great, then what? I’m still subhuman and nobody will ever love me for who I am. Life is literally a game. A shit game. You just keep living till you die. That’s it. You might think I’m crazy or stupid, but I guarantee you that if you think about it long enough, you’ll realize all of this is pointless.
Why can’t i just kill myself? Aren’t we free? Don’t we have free will? Why do I have to be life’s slave?
And by the way, it’s not just about looks. It’s everything else too. The fact that life is unfair fucking sucks. You might say, “Oh don’t be a pussy, build yourself anyway!” WHY WOULD I? Even if I successfully do something great, then what? I’m still subhuman and nobody will ever love me for who I am. Life is literally a game. A shit game. You just keep living till you die. That’s it. You might think I’m crazy or stupid, but I guarantee you that if you think about it long enough, you’ll realize all of this is pointless.
Why can’t i just kill myself? Aren’t we free? Don’t we have free will? Why do I have to be life’s slave?