Up until age 10 I considered everything in the universe to be an extension of myself

[neurosis]

Bear in mind I was borderline non-verbal up until age 5 and wasn't cognisant of the fact I had a body, and then progressed to talking to myself in my own solipsistic world and only started interacting (talking) with normies around age 9-10; which was exactly when I developed a sense of ego and separation from everything else in the universe.

Literal reverse enlightenment speed-run

 

[looksmaxingbeyond]

what about now?

 

[neurosis]

what about now?

Nothing's changed since, still stuck in a state of ego and separation from everything. Presumably because I haven't stopped talking (using language)

 

[registerfasterusing]

Bear in mind I was borderline non-verbal up until age 5 and wasn't cognisant of the fact I had a body, and then progressed to talking to myself in my own solipsistic world and only started interacting (talking) with normies around age 9-10; which was exactly when I developed a sense of ego and separation from everything else in the universe.

Literal reverse enlightenment speed-run

really interesting tbh. makes me think of lacan and the mirror stage

 

[looksmaxingbeyond]

Nothing's changed since, still stuck in a state of ego and separation from everything. Presumably because I haven't stopped talking (using language)

i heard a lot of ppl say meditation is all the same until they actually stop procrastinating and set up a Vipasana practice then they dissolve back into their true nature (enlightenment)

 

[neurosis]

really interesting tbh. makes me think of lacan and the mirror stage

Autism seems to be an extreme (pathological) k-selection strategy, so it makes perfect sense that we also have extremely delayed childhood-developmental milestones. Especially in areas that are associated with the intuition ie self awareness, ego and language.

Completely irrelevant, but considering humans and a few other animals are the only ones who can recognise themselves in the mirror, most animals on this planet are likely stuck in a state of perceiving reality as an extension of themselves (everything being one congruent object) and this is why they extra sensory perception mog us humans - Additionally, noting op, language exemplifies binary classifications (taxonomy) and your consciousness will further perceive reality as separate from the self

 

[registerfasterusing]

Autism seems to be an extreme (pathological) k-selection strategy, so it makes perfect sense that we also have extremely delayed childhood-developmental milestones. Especially in areas that are associated with the intuition ie self awareness, ego and language.

Completely irrelevant, but considering humans and a few other animals are the only ones who can recognise themselves in the mirror, most animals on this planet are likely stuck in a state of perceiving reality as an extension of themselves (everything being one congruent object) and this is why they extra sensory perception mog us humans - Additionally, noting op, language exemplifies binary classifications (taxonomy) and your consciousness will further perceive reality as separate from the self

the delayed developmental trajectory in autism can indeed be seen as a kind of intensified latency in the formation of the ego, which Lacan would associate with the Imaginary, the domain of image, misrecognition, and mirror identification. Autistic individuals often experience a fragmented or deferred entry into the imaginary order, which delays the stabilization of the ego through mirror-stage identification and can impact language acquisition, since entry into the Symbolic (language, law, social structure) depends on this prior imaginary formation

the ability to recognize oneself in the mirror marks the formation of an I, but also a fundamental alienation, because the ego is formed through an image that is both the self and not-self. Most animals arguably remain in the Real, where no such alienation or symbolic separation occurs. Their perception therefore may be non-differentiated, continuous, a kind of pre-symbolic unity with the world. This could indeed explain their heightened attunement to sensory phenomena outside of binary classification or ego-centered interpretation

language, like u said, introduces taxonomy, separation, and distinction which are core functions of the Symbolic. Once one enters the symbolic order, reality is no longer ‘one’ but becomes structured through absence, difference, and lack. Consciousness becomes a split subject, always alienated from the Real, mediated by a chain of signifiers.

Autistic perception may resist symbolic imposition, remaining closer to the Real in certain domains (sensory hypersensitivity), while struggling with the Imaginary-symbolic mediation required for typical social cognition