Update from Syria

[Narcissus🥀]

Currently in Damascus...
All the people i love are away, all went to different cities.

I sit alone in the capital, choking on regret.


6 months ago, i had everything i could ever want...

I newly got accepted into my new job, graduated and was warmly welcomed at work...



I was supposed to be the young hope for the laboratory im working at...
And i was so loved and adored by everyone...

They all were eager to talk to me, i was like the spoiled little sibling at work.


Most girls there told me that i should model instead, my blackpilled ego couldn't be more satisfied... to be called a model by women, its the ultimate looksmaxxer fantasy.
But it still craved more, my ego...

I became prideful and bitter.
I only liked the validation i got, i became a horrible person to those who were good to me.

Not only that i was blackpilled but also heavily redpilled...

I believed that if i were to act in a certain manner with a woman then she will become obsessed with me...

Game and courtship techniques are only valid for short term strategy with low integrity women.

I thought that i could fake myself as being a self confident and mature male.

But that only hurt me in the long term.

The concept of "game" is hypocritical...

It claims that you should be indifferent about the results, but at the same time if you're a venusian artist then you put plenty of effort into saying and doing the right things, the things that supposedly will spark attraction into women.

Its nothing but a big lie that you force yourself to believe.
You have already lost the moment you start arranging a game plan to seduce a woman, because that is the most needy thing to do.

I used to be normal looking and needy as a kid, now im handsome and arrogant.

These are two faces of doom...

I thought by becoming cocky i would no longer feel the shame I've felt in the past.

But now i see that pride is not the opposite of shame, but it's source..
Humility is the true antidote.


Ive been a horrible person, blinded by the toxic thoughts ive learned only for the sole reason of getting affection from women.

Ive sold my manhood and my masculine will devoting my time to learn how to make women love me.

But they already did love me, i just was always looking for something that could fill the bottomless pit of insecurity lurking inside of my soul.


Now i see i was wrong..

But i see the light now.

Honesty, self respect and manners are what truly make a man.

A true man does not meddle with pathetic tactics to earn the affection of women.


Now i remember six months ago i had everything i could ever ask for.

But i ruined everything, now i have nothing.

And as death knocks on my door i sit in pain.
I fear not what could happen to me.

I fear no man, no weapon, no sadistic way of death and no horrible destiny.
I never did fear anything really...

Except for being a vulnerable and honest person...
I was the lowest of the low, hurting people who were good to me.

Now i am despised, alone and regretful.

I just wanted to be loved.

If i survive what happens next then i know i will do my hardest to be a good person.

I dont want to disappoint anyone anymore.

I genuinely just want to be a better person.

 

[Deleted member 110723]

Pride is not the opposite of shame, but its source. True humility is the only antidote to shame."
— Iroh

 

[AustrianMogger]

Currently in Damascus...
All the people i love are away, all went to different cities.

I sit alone in the capital, choking on regret.


6 months ago, i had everything i could ever want...

I newly got accepted into my new job, graduated and was warmly welcomed at work...



I was supposed to be the young hope for the laboratory im working at...
And i was so loved and adored by everyone...

They all were eager to talk to me, i was like the spoiled little sibling at work.


Most girls there told me that i should model instead, my blackpilled ego couldn't be more satisfied... to be called a model by women, its the ultimate looksmaxxer fantasy.
But it still craved more, my ego...

I became prideful and bitter.
I only liked the validation i got, i became a horrible person to those who were good to me.

Not only that i was blackpilled but also heavily redpilled...

I believed that if i were to act in a certain manner with a woman then she will become obsessed with me...

Game and courtship techniques are only valid for short term strategy with low integrity women.

I thought that i could fake myself as being a self confident and mature male.

But that only hurt me in the long term.

The concept of "game" is hypocritical...

It claims that you should be indifferent about the results, but at the same time if you're a venusian artist then you put plenty of effort into saying and doing the right things, the things that supposedly will spark attraction into women.

Its nothing but a big lie that you force yourself to believe.
You have already lost the moment you start arranging a game plan to seduce a woman, because that is the most needy thing to do.

I used to be normal looking and needy as a kid, now im handsome and arrogant.

These are two faces of doom...

I thought by becoming cocky i would no longer feel the shame I've felt in the past.

But now i see that pride is not the opposite of shame, but it's source..
Humility is the true antidote.


Ive been a horrible person, blinded by the toxic thoughts ive learned only for the sole reason of getting affection from women.

Ive sold my manhood and my masculine will devoting my time to learn how to make women love me.

But they already did love me, i just was always looking for something that could fill the bottomless pit of insecurity lurking inside of my soul.


Now i see i was wrong..

But i see the light now.

Honesty, self respect and manners are what truly make a man.

A true man does not meddle with pathetic tactics to earn the affection of women.


Now i remember six months ago i had everything i could ever ask for.

But i ruined everything, now i have nothing.

And as death knocks on my door i sit in pain.
I fear not what could happen to me.

I fear no man, no weapon, no sadistic way of death and no horrible destiny.
I never did fear anything really...

Except for being a vulnerable and honest person...
I was the lowest of the low, hurting people who were good to me.

Now i am despised, alone and regretful.

I just wanted to be loved.

If i survive what happens next then i know i will do my hardest to be a good person.

I dont want to disappoint anyone anymore.

I genuinely just want to be a better person.

Where did you get your pfp from?
btwn i dont care about Syria

 

[Deleted member 97572]

Mudslime ramblings dnrd

 

[IncelJihadist]

Currently in Damascus...
All the people i love are away, all went to different cities.

I sit alone in the capital, choking on regret.


6 months ago, i had everything i could ever want...

I newly got accepted into my new job, graduated and was warmly welcomed at work...



I was supposed to be the young hope for the laboratory im working at...
And i was so loved and adored by everyone...

They all were eager to talk to me, i was like the spoiled little sibling at work.


Most girls there told me that i should model instead, my blackpilled ego couldn't be more satisfied... to be called a model by women, its the ultimate looksmaxxer fantasy.
But it still craved more, my ego...

I became prideful and bitter.
I only liked the validation i got, i became a horrible person to those who were good to me.

Not only that i was blackpilled but also heavily redpilled...

I believed that if i were to act in a certain manner with a woman then she will become obsessed with me...

Game and courtship techniques are only valid for short term strategy with low integrity women.

I thought that i could fake myself as being a self confident and mature male.

But that only hurt me in the long term.

The concept of "game" is hypocritical...

It claims that you should be indifferent about the results, but at the same time if you're a venusian artist then you put plenty of effort into saying and doing the right things, the things that supposedly will spark attraction into women.

Its nothing but a big lie that you force yourself to believe.
You have already lost the moment you start arranging a game plan to seduce a woman, because that is the most needy thing to do.

I used to be normal looking and needy as a kid, now im handsome and arrogant.

These are two faces of doom...

I thought by becoming cocky i would no longer feel the shame I've felt in the past.

But now i see that pride is not the opposite of shame, but it's source..
Humility is the true antidote.


Ive been a horrible person, blinded by the toxic thoughts ive learned only for the sole reason of getting affection from women.

Ive sold my manhood and my masculine will devoting my time to learn how to make women love me.

But they already did love me, i just was always looking for something that could fill the bottomless pit of insecurity lurking inside of my soul.


Now i see i was wrong..

But i see the light now.

Honesty, self respect and manners are what truly make a man.

A true man does not meddle with pathetic tactics to earn the affection of women.


Now i remember six months ago i had everything i could ever ask for.

But i ruined everything, now i have nothing.

And as death knocks on my door i sit in pain.
I fear not what could happen to me.

I fear no man, no weapon, no sadistic way of death and no horrible destiny.
I never did fear anything really...

Except for being a vulnerable and honest person...
I was the lowest of the low, hurting people who were good to me.

Now i am despised, alone and regretful.

I just wanted to be loved.

If i survive what happens next then i know i will do my hardest to be a good person.

I dont want to disappoint anyone anymore.

I genuinely just want to be a better person.

Not my problem sandnigger

 

[delonisliterallyme]

dnr
get fucked muslimshits

 

[IncelJihadist]

Mudslime ramblings dnrd

Inshallah some cucked european nation will give asylum to this rapefugee

 

[aDifferentPerspect]

 

[Beastimmung]

bro the rebels are at your cities door

 

[moodless]

Stop trying so hard to be "deep", it's so cringe and all you are doing is writing a weird word salad with language you've learnt solely off Hollywood and reddit

 

[lykoris]

Currently in Damascus...
All the people i love are away, all went to different cities.

I sit alone in the capital, choking on regret.


6 months ago, i had everything i could ever want...

I newly got accepted into my new job, graduated and was warmly welcomed at work...



I was supposed to be the young hope for the laboratory im working at...
And i was so loved and adored by everyone...

They all were eager to talk to me, i was like the spoiled little sibling at work.


Most girls there told me that i should model instead, my blackpilled ego couldn't be more satisfied... to be called a model by women, its the ultimate looksmaxxer fantasy.
But it still craved more, my ego...

I became prideful and bitter.
I only liked the validation i got, i became a horrible person to those who were good to me.

Not only that i was blackpilled but also heavily redpilled...

I believed that if i were to act in a certain manner with a woman then she will become obsessed with me...

Game and courtship techniques are only valid for short term strategy with low integrity women.

I thought that i could fake myself as being a self confident and mature male.

But that only hurt me in the long term.

The concept of "game" is hypocritical...

It claims that you should be indifferent about the results, but at the same time if you're a venusian artist then you put plenty of effort into saying and doing the right things, the things that supposedly will spark attraction into women.

Its nothing but a big lie that you force yourself to believe.
You have already lost the moment you start arranging a game plan to seduce a woman, because that is the most needy thing to do.

I used to be normal looking and needy as a kid, now im handsome and arrogant.

These are two faces of doom...

I thought by becoming cocky i would no longer feel the shame I've felt in the past.

But now i see that pride is not the opposite of shame, but it's source..
Humility is the true antidote.


Ive been a horrible person, blinded by the toxic thoughts ive learned only for the sole reason of getting affection from women.

Ive sold my manhood and my masculine will devoting my time to learn how to make women love me.

But they already did love me, i just was always looking for something that could fill the bottomless pit of insecurity lurking inside of my soul.


Now i see i was wrong..

But i see the light now.

Honesty, self respect and manners are what truly make a man.

A true man does not meddle with pathetic tactics to earn the affection of women.


Now i remember six months ago i had everything i could ever ask for.

But i ruined everything, now i have nothing.

And as death knocks on my door i sit in pain.
I fear not what could happen to me.

I fear no man, no weapon, no sadistic way of death and no horrible destiny.
I never did fear anything really...

Except for being a vulnerable and honest person...
I was the lowest of the low, hurting people who were good to me.

Now i am despised, alone and regretful.

I just wanted to be loved.

If i survive what happens next then i know i will do my hardest to be a good person.

I dont want to disappoint anyone anymore.

I genuinely just want to be a better person.

Not a single neutrino

 

[Defeatist]

Sad how life is mostly out of your hands

Op was born in Middle East when it is ridden with war

It’s not luck though
Just the natural order of things

 

[The Grinch]

bro the rebels are at your cities door

I was expecting a war report, since he is in the middle of a warzone, instead it was a long rant about looksmaxing issues @yeeyeeslayer

 

[yeeyeeslayer]

very happy to hear from you again habibi, ignore all the assholes under the comments the userbase became a lot more shit recently....

 

[blackrockjewmanlet]

Currently in Damascus...
All the people i love are away, all went to different cities.

I sit alone in the capital, choking on regret.


6 months ago, i had everything i could ever want...

I newly got accepted into my new job, graduated and was warmly welcomed at work...



I was supposed to be the young hope for the laboratory im working at...
And i was so loved and adored by everyone...

They all were eager to talk to me, i was like the spoiled little sibling at work.


Most girls there told me that i should model instead, my blackpilled ego couldn't be more satisfied... to be called a model by women, its the ultimate looksmaxxer fantasy.
But it still craved more, my ego...

I became prideful and bitter.
I only liked the validation i got, i became a horrible person to those who were good to me.

Not only that i was blackpilled but also heavily redpilled...

I believed that if i were to act in a certain manner with a woman then she will become obsessed with me...

Game and courtship techniques are only valid for short term strategy with low integrity women.

I thought that i could fake myself as being a self confident and mature male.

But that only hurt me in the long term.

The concept of "game" is hypocritical...

It claims that you should be indifferent about the results, but at the same time if you're a venusian artist then you put plenty of effort into saying and doing the right things, the things that supposedly will spark attraction into women.

Its nothing but a big lie that you force yourself to believe.
You have already lost the moment you start arranging a game plan to seduce a woman, because that is the most needy thing to do.

I used to be normal looking and needy as a kid, now im handsome and arrogant.

These are two faces of doom...

I thought by becoming cocky i would no longer feel the shame I've felt in the past.

But now i see that pride is not the opposite of shame, but it's source..
Humility is the true antidote.


Ive been a horrible person, blinded by the toxic thoughts ive learned only for the sole reason of getting affection from women.

Ive sold my manhood and my masculine will devoting my time to learn how to make women love me.

But they already did love me, i just was always looking for something that could fill the bottomless pit of insecurity lurking inside of my soul.


Now i see i was wrong..

But i see the light now.

Honesty, self respect and manners are what truly make a man.

A true man does not meddle with pathetic tactics to earn the affection of women.


Now i remember six months ago i had everything i could ever ask for.

But i ruined everything, now i have nothing.

And as death knocks on my door i sit in pain.
I fear not what could happen to me.

I fear no man, no weapon, no sadistic way of death and no horrible destiny.
I never did fear anything really...

Except for being a vulnerable and honest person...
I was the lowest of the low, hurting people who were good to me.

Now i am despised, alone and regretful.

I just wanted to be loved.

If i survive what happens next then i know i will do my hardest to be a good person.

I dont want to disappoint anyone anymore.

I genuinely just want to be a better person.

 

[Deleted member 19442]

reading dua for u guys bhai

 

[enchanted_elixir]

The thing about @Narcissus🥀 is that he works at a laboratory while people here are teenage neets

 

[Shahnameh]

Can u capture some virgin syrian girls and send them my way?

 

[iblamericky]

dnrd

 

[zaideas]

its all good bro syria is better dw

 

[zaideas]

btw how old are you cuz graduating in syria takes 5 years so you must be like 25

 

[lifeless]

How’s aleppo doing

 

[Narcissus🥀]

btw how old are you cuz graduating in syria takes 5 years so you must be like 25

20

 

[Niko.]

Currently in Damascus...
All the people i love are away, all went to different cities.

I sit alone in the capital, choking on regret.


6 months ago, i had everything i could ever want...

I newly got accepted into my new job, graduated and was warmly welcomed at work...



I was supposed to be the young hope for the laboratory im working at...
And i was so loved and adored by everyone...

They all were eager to talk to me, i was like the spoiled little sibling at work.


Most girls there told me that i should model instead, my blackpilled ego couldn't be more satisfied... to be called a model by women, its the ultimate looksmaxxer fantasy.
But it still craved more, my ego...

I became prideful and bitter.
I only liked the validation i got, i became a horrible person to those who were good to me.

Not only that i was blackpilled but also heavily redpilled...

I believed that if i were to act in a certain manner with a woman then she will become obsessed with me...

Game and courtship techniques are only valid for short term strategy with low integrity women.

I thought that i could fake myself as being a self confident and mature male.

But that only hurt me in the long term.

The concept of "game" is hypocritical...

It claims that you should be indifferent about the results, but at the same time if you're a venusian artist then you put plenty of effort into saying and doing the right things, the things that supposedly will spark attraction into women.

Its nothing but a big lie that you force yourself to believe.
You have already lost the moment you start arranging a game plan to seduce a woman, because that is the most needy thing to do.

I used to be normal looking and needy as a kid, now im handsome and arrogant.

These are two faces of doom...

I thought by becoming cocky i would no longer feel the shame I've felt in the past.

But now i see that pride is not the opposite of shame, but it's source..
Humility is the true antidote.


Ive been a horrible person, blinded by the toxic thoughts ive learned only for the sole reason of getting affection from women.

Ive sold my manhood and my masculine will devoting my time to learn how to make women love me.

But they already did love me, i just was always looking for something that could fill the bottomless pit of insecurity lurking inside of my soul.


Now i see i was wrong..

But i see the light now.

Honesty, self respect and manners are what truly make a man.

A true man does not meddle with pathetic tactics to earn the affection of women.


Now i remember six months ago i had everything i could ever ask for.

But i ruined everything, now i have nothing.

And as death knocks on my door i sit in pain.
I fear not what could happen to me.

I fear no man, no weapon, no sadistic way of death and no horrible destiny.
I never did fear anything really...

Except for being a vulnerable and honest person...
I was the lowest of the low, hurting people who were good to me.

Now i am despised, alone and regretful.

I just wanted to be loved.

If i survive what happens next then i know i will do my hardest to be a good person.

I dont want to disappoint anyone anymore.

I genuinely just want to be a better person.

 

[zaideas]

20

how tf r u graduated and im only second year uni, im currently in aiu

 

[childishkillah]

Currently in Damascus...
All the people i love are away, all went to different cities.

I sit alone in the capital, choking on regret.


6 months ago, i had everything i could ever want...

I newly got accepted into my new job, graduated and was warmly welcomed at work...



I was supposed to be the young hope for the laboratory im working at...
And i was so loved and adored by everyone...

They all were eager to talk to me, i was like the spoiled little sibling at work.


Most girls there told me that i should model instead, my blackpilled ego couldn't be more satisfied... to be called a model by women, its the ultimate looksmaxxer fantasy.
But it still craved more, my ego...

I became prideful and bitter.
I only liked the validation i got, i became a horrible person to those who were good to me.

Not only that i was blackpilled but also heavily redpilled...

I believed that if i were to act in a certain manner with a woman then she will become obsessed with me...

Game and courtship techniques are only valid for short term strategy with low integrity women.

I thought that i could fake myself as being a self confident and mature male.

But that only hurt me in the long term.

The concept of "game" is hypocritical...

It claims that you should be indifferent about the results, but at the same time if you're a venusian artist then you put plenty of effort into saying and doing the right things, the things that supposedly will spark attraction into women.

Its nothing but a big lie that you force yourself to believe.
You have already lost the moment you start arranging a game plan to seduce a woman, because that is the most needy thing to do.

I used to be normal looking and needy as a kid, now im handsome and arrogant.

These are two faces of doom...

I thought by becoming cocky i would no longer feel the shame I've felt in the past.

But now i see that pride is not the opposite of shame, but it's source..
Humility is the true antidote.


Ive been a horrible person, blinded by the toxic thoughts ive learned only for the sole reason of getting affection from women.

Ive sold my manhood and my masculine will devoting my time to learn how to make women love me.

But they already did love me, i just was always looking for something that could fill the bottomless pit of insecurity lurking inside of my soul.


Now i see i was wrong..

But i see the light now.

Honesty, self respect and manners are what truly make a man.

A true man does not meddle with pathetic tactics to earn the affection of women.


Now i remember six months ago i had everything i could ever ask for.

But i ruined everything, now i have nothing.

And as death knocks on my door i sit in pain.
I fear not what could happen to me.

I fear no man, no weapon, no sadistic way of death and no horrible destiny.
I never did fear anything really...

Except for being a vulnerable and honest person...
I was the lowest of the low, hurting people who were good to me.

Now i am despised, alone and regretful.

I just wanted to be loved.

If i survive what happens next then i know i will do my hardest to be a good person.

I dont want to disappoint anyone anymore.

I genuinely just want to be a better person.

How are things going there, brother? I hope everything is going as well as possible for you.

 

[JohnBaza]

very happy to hear from you again habibi, ignore all the assholes under the comments the userbase became a lot more shit recently....

i am reading this now and I am in shock tbh
disgusting creatures man