Very suicidal recently

[NuclearBrainReturns]

Hard to describe what it is in a nutshell but its a lot of things

1. The fact that I can do everything I can to try and improve the way that I look but all it takes is a girl im interested in to think 'meh, nahhhh' and its all for nothing.
2. To add to this, you can learn anything you want to learn if you put your mind to it. But you cannot learn how to get laid better if a girl simply doesnt share a spark with you.
3. Sex and relationships themselves aren't as fulfilling and yet for some reason, my brain still wants it. I theoretically know that every relationship I've had has ended in disaster and yet my brain somehow still thinks I can end up in a happily ever after scenario
4. Artificial Intelligence is destroying my section of expertise to the point where I feel I may be resigned to working some monotonous coding job working on the very thing that is destroying what I wanted to do with my life.
5. Nobody gives a fuck about any of this and if you ever bring this up irl people will think you are a debbie-downer and stop talking to you. Nobody wants to have a discussion about these issues and they haven't for a very long time.
6. To add to this, everyone is desperately trying to claw a life for themselves out of a crumbling civilisation and so working together is now perceived as threatening. Atomisation seems to be happening more and more now.

I never normally post like this but I am seriously suicidal and I know if I go to a professional I'll just get doped up on drugs which will further impact my concentration and stall me even further in what I want to do. I have no fucking idea what to do which is why I'm even posting about this.

 

[Bashan]

dnred it's all cope. Inject dopamine or rope.

 

[Suimaxxer]

Dnr but same (not just recently but for the past 5 years)

 

[Deleted member 23115]

seasonal affective disorder

 

[Bashan]

seasonal affective disorder

What about manlet gook for life disorder what can we do about that? I think doctors still can't treat that shit.

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

Dnr but same (not just recently but for the past 5 years)

I feel like I was more depressed back in the day like 2018 but I wasnt suicidal

Now im less depressed but more suicidal

 

[Deleted member 25667]

Ngl life is so much better when you just give up

 

[Suimaxxer]

I feel like I was more depressed back in the day like 2018 but I wasnt suicidal

Now im less depressed but more suicidal

In 2018 i was starting to experience feelings of sadness and depression out of nowhere with a bit of suicidal tendencies, now i wanna swallow a grenade

 

[Bashan]

Ngl life is so much better when you just give up

You didn't gave up. You might think you did

 

[Deleted member 23115]

What about manlet gook for life disorder what can we do about that? I think doctors still can't treat that shit.

i genuinely dont care about my height only face. At my height you can do anything except beat tlaler guys in wrestling kinda sports which you dont even do. yes im 5'6 5'9 and 5'6 are the exact same haha. keep following me around cause i caled u an autistic and pedo looking suicidal clown

 

[Bashan]

i genuinely dont care about my height only face. At my height you can do anything except beat tlaler guys in wrestling kinda sports which you dont even do. yes im 5'6 5'9 and 5'6 are the exact same haha. keep following me around cause i caled u an autistic and pedo looking suicidal clown

Caged wtf this is actually fun I understand him now.

 

[Deleted member 23115]

Caged wtf this is actually fun I understand him now.

If you played sports at a high level due to height i would accept it but u dont. Face>height in the grand scheme of things.

 

[Deleted member 25667]

You didn't gave up. You might think you did

I've given up tbh. I have waved the white flag. Its a very emancipating feeling, just letting go.

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

Ngl life is so much better when you just give up

Idk about that. I have a part of me that never wants to give up for some reason

In 2018 i was starting to experience feelings of sadness and depression out of nowhere with a bit of suicidal tendencies, now i wanna swallow a grenade

I had a moment last night where I was laying in bed and genuinely wanted to kill myself. I always had doubts and stuff before that but I genuinely felt 'I could do this right now'. I ended up passing out asleep probably due to stress but it was a strange and very scary thought thinking back to it.

 

[phookmumb]

Roll some weed

 

[Bashan]

If you played sports at a high level due to height i would accept it but u dont. Face>height in the grand scheme of things.

Ok 5'6 boy. You won. I don't play in the NFL. Over for my 6'3. Wish I was a cute gook like you. I also face mog you 200%, gook

 

[Deleted member 20179]

Ngl life is so much better when you just give up

Can you explain more?

 

[Bashan]

I've given up tbh. I have waved the white flag. Its a very emancipating feeling, just letting go.

The spark will comeback. You didn't. You're not too far gone for that to happen.

For example if you were a 5'6 gook like @Lone Wolf I would've believe you. But even then it's probably hard since were all humans.

 

[stevielake]

This site is the worst place to air your grievances and vent. Normies unironically treat you better when you bring up suicide than the dickheads here.

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

Roll some weed

Weed makes me go mental now. I'm avoiding it.

This site is the worst place to air your grievances and vent. Normies unironically treat you better when you bring up suicide than the dickheads here.

Not in my experience. If I told anyone irl about what really goes on in my head they would stop speaking to me. Not because I think about things that are dangerous, but because they don't want to have a conversation about these issues and prefer just to ignore them.

 

[Deleted member 25667]

Can you explain more?

Idk man, just letting everything go and accepting it's over.

Probably not relatable unless youre a massive incel but trying to keep up with everybody else is exhausting. School, wageslaving, socialising, looksmaxxing, it's difficult.

 

[khvirgin]

I feel like I was more depressed back in the day like 2018 but I wasnt suicidal

Now im less depressed but more suicidal

i feel the same

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

Idk man, just letting everything go and accepting it's over.

Probably not relatable unless youre a massive incel but trying to keep up with everybody else is exhausting. School, wageslaving, socialising, looksmaxxing, it's difficult.

Keeping up with the Jones's is so fucking difficult and not worth it. I gave up trying to compete with people in that way a long fucking time ago.

So not fucking worth it. You get scraps at the end after all that labour.

 

[NordicMaxxer]

I feel like I was more depressed back in the day like 2018 but I wasnt suicidal

Now im less depressed but more suicidal

Same actually. It's like I was super depressed before because I had hope, and wasn't going to give up even though everything was shit.

Now I have less hope, and I almost feel stoic with my suicidal thoughts. It actually just seems sort of logical. Why choose suffering over nothing? Biological programming I guess.

Anyway, I feel you, brother. Where are you from?

 

[Deleted member 23017]

same here

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

Same actually. It's like I was super depressed before because I had hope, and wasn't going to give up even though everything was shit.

Now I have less hope, and I almost feel stoic with my suicidal thoughts. It actually just seems sort of logical. Why choose suffering over nothing? Biological programming I guess.

Anyway, I feel you, brother. Where are you from?

UK

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

Same actually. It's like I was super depressed before because I had hope, and wasn't going to give up even though everything was shit.

Now I have less hope, and I almost feel stoic with my suicidal thoughts. It actually just seems sort of logical. Why choose suffering over nothing? Biological programming I guess.

Anyway, I feel you, brother. Where are you from?

And yeah its like before I still had that spark that said 'even if everything is shit I can still see a future' but after the last little while I seriously see my life slipping away out of my hands and I can't do anything about it. Nobody wants to employ me lol.

On top of everything else I posted.

 

[RAITEIII]

Hard to describe what it is in a nutshell but its a lot of things

1. The fact that I can do everything I can to try and improve the way that I look but all it takes is a girl im interested in to think 'meh, nahhhh' and its all for nothing.
2. To add to this, you can learn anything you want to learn if you put your mind to it. But you cannot learn how to get laid better if a girl simply doesnt share a spark with you.
3. Sex and relationships themselves aren't as fulfilling and yet for some reason, my brain still wants it. I theoretically know that every relationship I've had has ended in disaster and yet my brain somehow still thinks I can end up in a happily ever after scenario
4. Artificial Intelligence is destroying my section of expertise to the point where I feel I may be resigned to working some monotonous coding job working on the very thing that is destroying what I wanted to do with my life.
5. Nobody gives a fuck about any of this and if you ever bring this up irl people will think you are a debbie-downer and stop talking to you. Nobody wants to have a discussion about these issues and they haven't for a very long time.
6. To add to this, everyone is desperately trying to claw a life for themselves out of a crumbling civilisation and so working together is now perceived as threatening. Atomisation seems to be happening more and more now.

I never normally post like this but I am seriously suicidal and I know if I go to a professional I'll just get doped up on drugs which will further impact my concentration and stall me even further in what I want to do. I have no fucking idea what to do which is why I'm even posting about this.

1. Keep going like everyone. You're not alone. We all are together. And everyone could get rejected.
Key point is having confidence in your looks. If you know you look good, then thats fine if you sometimes get rejected cuz none is univerally good looking. Consider gymceling tho.


2. Like point 1. Youre not alone. I dont share a spark with everyone lol. Its not meant to be like that. It means that this is just a hook up and nothing else. What do u think tinder is? A lot of people sleeping around yet theres no spark thus keep trying.

3. Depends who you are with and ur capacity to experience love. Everyone I hsve slept or dated has also been a massive disaster but although it wasnt my fault I could have handled things better. Now im prepared.

4. Lets sort a business together. Come to Dms

5. Been there done that. Your internet Bros are to share ur sorrows. Accept this pill. we are more human here. Even myself you will never see me taking my time to advice someone in real life EVER. Lol. Not that deep. Maybe some words if I I care... idk

6. Forget about people.


7. Our mental health could be genetical tbh. Protect your neurotransmition as in dont get damaged because it gets worse and more negative traits keep awakening. You just need to have a look at ur parents. Anything they have, u could be at risk. U just didnt express. Snd they could have stuff passed to u that they didnt express.