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I think my new 3mmc supplier from france is legit, and this stuff is actually 3mmc instead of 2mmc being sold as 2mmc like I had before. Had a very good high.
Also the ketamine kicked in like crazy yesterday @apocalypse @PROMETHEUS . I snorted ~1gram during the night and was k-holing hard. With all the corresponding mega-hallucinations where my reality starts glitching into this space-ship that seems to have all the alternative quantum realities available for me to choose from.
The way these alternative realities glitch in my vision, like the way the hallucinations are presented, is actually incredibly cool. I wish I could save this memory/experience somehow and share it because it remains one of the most incredible drug-experiences for me. These reality-glitches through my vision.
The trip ended really, really bad though. I came across all my old painfull memories, reliving all the trauma from my childhood and my recent past in which this trauma made it unable for me to succeed in life. My heart hurt and I was in brutal pain and discomfort. But it was necessary I believe.
Made me realize that I can't keep going on like I am doing now because this pain I felt isn't gone, it's just hidden, swept under the rug, when I am not high.
And it will forever till I die, reduce my life-quality to unbelievably low levels like it has done in recent years.
I need to act, I can't give up, I need to keep going and keep giving this trauma and emotional-hurt a better place in my mind and heart.
As a result I have also decided to quit this forum as I have concluded it's not a beneficial part of my healing journey anymore.
With this I want to wish everyone here the best with their own journeys through life.
Godspeed
Also the ketamine kicked in like crazy yesterday @apocalypse @PROMETHEUS . I snorted ~1gram during the night and was k-holing hard. With all the corresponding mega-hallucinations where my reality starts glitching into this space-ship that seems to have all the alternative quantum realities available for me to choose from.
The way these alternative realities glitch in my vision, like the way the hallucinations are presented, is actually incredibly cool. I wish I could save this memory/experience somehow and share it because it remains one of the most incredible drug-experiences for me. These reality-glitches through my vision.
The trip ended really, really bad though. I came across all my old painfull memories, reliving all the trauma from my childhood and my recent past in which this trauma made it unable for me to succeed in life. My heart hurt and I was in brutal pain and discomfort. But it was necessary I believe.
Made me realize that I can't keep going on like I am doing now because this pain I felt isn't gone, it's just hidden, swept under the rug, when I am not high.
And it will forever till I die, reduce my life-quality to unbelievably low levels like it has done in recent years.
I need to act, I can't give up, I need to keep going and keep giving this trauma and emotional-hurt a better place in my mind and heart.
As a result I have also decided to quit this forum as I have concluded it's not a beneficial part of my healing journey anymore.
With this I want to wish everyone here the best with their own journeys through life.
Godspeed
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