waste

[dipenhydramine]

i feel like shit thinking about what i could have been

i have a good brain that can learn stuff quick but i dedicated it to useless shit and then fried it with dph
ive passed down multiple opportunities for good jobs and a set future
ive rejected a few girls in an autistic panic
ive wasted so much time rotting instead of doing well
im actually a fucking failure and its just hit me
imagine raising a kid for 16 years just for him to come out a dph fiend socially retarded mentally fucked up khhv loner
i really regret not larping i wish i could go into psychosis so i can cut through all the veins
jfl im too pussy for even that i cant even cut past the fat layer

 

[ThraxxGlo]

i also hate being an autist
my parents want me to become a docter ,lawyer ,engineer all those typa jobs but i cant because im autistsic and im doing shit at school and i always envy the kids in my class with high test results and they still have a social life and have friends even tho they are sub 5s and i am the one who gets bullied just because of me being ND and have zero to no social life and my friends hate me and leave me on read

 

[dipenhydramine]

i also hate being an autist
my parents want me to become a docter ,lawyer ,engineer all those typa jobs but i cant because im autistsic and im doing shit at school and i always envy the kids in my class with high test results and they still have a social life and have friends even tho they are sub 5s and i am the one who gets bullied just because of my being ND

its so shit

i want to be normal but im too far gone