afkaik
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Whether it be from the beginning of the universe or just from the poor decisions of your mother. Your life has been doomed from the beginning to the end. There is no hope for you if you aren't born, beautiful, talented, or intelligent. Either one of these three is the miracle which will allow you to truly live, and not just exist.
[COLOR=var(--darkreader-text-eeeeee, #dddad6)]There is an *. And that is that free will exists only within ourselves. In the little choices, slowly. And only if you are aware.[/COLOR]
I can see the divine is real, people did not kill thousands and millions for fairy tales. But they were illusory.
But there is no "one" coming to save you, and if they do, be sure to know they're playing good cop bad cop on you.
Let us believe that what we decide from awareness, from now on, changes our future.
Even if it takes surgery. Even if you lose out, even if someone else wins today, there is still a possibility tomorrow. For that alone i allow all the suffering in my life. Even if i lost out on teenage love, even if i became a manlet, even if i am horrible looking today. Even if every day i cry to sleep, i slave, i investigate, i travel, i urge myself to do more, until our bodies give out, and i think i want to put a bullet through my head every other day, and i resist the urge to crack the skull open of all the women who've wronged me. Even if i have to put belts in my mouth, autistically swallow every other minute, put my thumbs in my mouth, abuse antihistamines, abuse steroids, abuse stimulants, import chinese rat piss straight into my veins, or have to deal with the side effects of all the medications i am in, or have to time my meals, or weigh myself, and check off all those checklists, and be sure to stretch, or deal with kidney pain, sleep 8 hours a day drink 4 liters of water, etc.
As long as we get out of here we will be fine, and once we are out we will never come back
It is the darkest hour of the night in the soul to find out just how poor one is in all the things that are more expensive than all the money in the world
That is why, let us think that what we do today makes a difference for tomorrow.
Even if we move like worms, slowly but surely. Even if this is our only chance at life. Even if you bloom later in life. Or if you don't bloom at all. I hope you can break out of this cycle, and not to stop suffering. Because as long as you are alive, you will suffer. But to suffer for a reason, instead of the bullying the world holds for you.
It is never wrong to try to fulfill your desires and urges, everyone else IS for trying to make you give up on them. Even if they're farther away. Much, much farther away.
Let us believe that the choices we make from now on make an impact.
[COLOR=var(--darkreader-text-eeeeee, #dddad6)]There is an *. And that is that free will exists only within ourselves. In the little choices, slowly. And only if you are aware.[/COLOR]
I can see the divine is real, people did not kill thousands and millions for fairy tales. But they were illusory.
But there is no "one" coming to save you, and if they do, be sure to know they're playing good cop bad cop on you.
Let us believe that what we decide from awareness, from now on, changes our future.
Even if it takes surgery. Even if you lose out, even if someone else wins today, there is still a possibility tomorrow. For that alone i allow all the suffering in my life. Even if i lost out on teenage love, even if i became a manlet, even if i am horrible looking today. Even if every day i cry to sleep, i slave, i investigate, i travel, i urge myself to do more, until our bodies give out, and i think i want to put a bullet through my head every other day, and i resist the urge to crack the skull open of all the women who've wronged me. Even if i have to put belts in my mouth, autistically swallow every other minute, put my thumbs in my mouth, abuse antihistamines, abuse steroids, abuse stimulants, import chinese rat piss straight into my veins, or have to deal with the side effects of all the medications i am in, or have to time my meals, or weigh myself, and check off all those checklists, and be sure to stretch, or deal with kidney pain, sleep 8 hours a day drink 4 liters of water, etc.
As long as we get out of here we will be fine, and once we are out we will never come back
It is the darkest hour of the night in the soul to find out just how poor one is in all the things that are more expensive than all the money in the world
That is why, let us think that what we do today makes a difference for tomorrow.
Even if we move like worms, slowly but surely. Even if this is our only chance at life. Even if you bloom later in life. Or if you don't bloom at all. I hope you can break out of this cycle, and not to stop suffering. Because as long as you are alive, you will suffer. But to suffer for a reason, instead of the bullying the world holds for you.
It is never wrong to try to fulfill your desires and urges, everyone else IS for trying to make you give up on them. Even if they're farther away. Much, much farther away.
Let us believe that the choices we make from now on make an impact.
