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I am 19 year old, and I am playing semi-pro and collegiate soccer with the goal of playing professionally. 5 months ago, I had a really bad experience with a girl, which I won't explain, but she broke my mind because I was naive. I struggled with mental health and self-hatred for the next 3 months, and then the cherry on top was my friend found her on Hinge, and showed me, and I genuinely felt like killing myself because I really liked her, and I dated her for 6 months. Then I shortly realized many, many girls are like this. I would go as far as to say that I hate the majority of women, mainly because of what they do, and they are hypergamous fucking whores who deserve suffering. Anyways, after being a degen for months and barely sleeping, I thought I was going to be an even bigger degen when I took an edible with my friend. I had never been high before, so I did not know what to expect, but I had extreme clarity and euphoria, felt more of a man, and I felt like I knew my purpose. I genuinely redeveloped my passion for soccer and the gym again, and I have been crazily obsessed with trying to improve at soccer, and trying to look better, and lean down a bit more at the gym. I have been taking an edible every night for 2 months, and my grades improved from Cs to literally All As in my math classes ex: calc 3, linear algebra, differential equations. Then, not only that, I look as good as I have ever. I drink around a gallon of water per day and take 5g of Creatine. I considered Reta, but I have need to do more research. Additionally, I have been treating women very poorly as of late, basically just trying my best to lure them to sex, and it works the majority of the time as of late. I do not enjoy talking to women in general, and get rather irritated, and it feels really good to fuck. I have increased testosterone from 700-980ng/dL, just from what I did, and it plays a big role in motivation, but I feel the weed got me addicted to trying to improve at everything, and I have control over women. I am 5'9 160 very lean, and I bench 225x6, so physique plays a bigger role for women than most people think and it just makes you look better, and it is not cope lol. But it is weird because I thought the weed makes people lazy and sleepy, but I have lots of energy and feel powerful on it, and sleep amazingly. I hate it when a guy praises women, and then the bitch acts like she is the prize, when in reality, she is never the prize. Remember that. Is anyone smart enough to speak on this?