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I don’t even know how to organize my thoughts right now, so I’m just going to write it out as it comes
My husband and I are both in our 30s, and I’ve known for a long time that he struggles with porn. I know enough to understand the patterns, this morning I found he had saved content from a 19yo girl
I know technically that’s legal, but that’s a kid, a fucking kid, someone who was in high school yesterday, whose brain isn’t even fully developed yet, how twisted do you have to be to look at someone that young that way?
She’s not an adult creator, it’s a celebrity actress, she’s just doing her job and not trying to be perceived that way, and I feel almost maternal toward her, I don’t have kids nor do I want to, but that is someone’s child, someone raised her, protected her, watched her grow up, and now she’s being reduced to this by men old enough to know better
I’m not planning to confront him about this. At this point, I’m emotionally checked out of trying to fix or manage his behavior, the only reason I still check what he’s looking at is for my own safety and awareness, to make sure nothing escalates into something illegal or something that could harm me in a bigger way. I’ll leave when I’m able to, there’s nothing left for me in this marriage, I just wanted to vent because this community is the only place I feel heard
My husband and I are both in our 30s, and I’ve known for a long time that he struggles with porn. I know enough to understand the patterns, this morning I found he had saved content from a 19yo girl
I know technically that’s legal, but that’s a kid, a fucking kid, someone who was in high school yesterday, whose brain isn’t even fully developed yet, how twisted do you have to be to look at someone that young that way?
She’s not an adult creator, it’s a celebrity actress, she’s just doing her job and not trying to be perceived that way, and I feel almost maternal toward her, I don’t have kids nor do I want to, but that is someone’s child, someone raised her, protected her, watched her grow up, and now she’s being reduced to this by men old enough to know better
I’m not planning to confront him about this. At this point, I’m emotionally checked out of trying to fix or manage his behavior, the only reason I still check what he’s looking at is for my own safety and awareness, to make sure nothing escalates into something illegal or something that could harm me in a bigger way. I’ll leave when I’m able to, there’s nothing left for me in this marriage, I just wanted to vent because this community is the only place I feel heard
